Total pages in book: 47
Estimated words: 45210 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 226(@200wpm)___ 181(@250wpm)___ 151(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 45210 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 226(@200wpm)___ 181(@250wpm)___ 151(@300wpm)
He nods sadly. “I’m afraid so, baby.”
I sniff and try to hold back the tears. “I thought for sure this would be the thing that healed her.” I grab on to Kanan’s arm and search his eyes. “What if I’m a bad mom? What if I-”
He cuts me off. “That’s not going to happen, Em. You’re already the best mom. You’re already loving her, protecting her, making your decisions around her. You’re going to be the best mom.”
I start to cry, and Kanan looks at me in anguish. He hates it when I cry.
Kanan
I hate it when she cries. I would like to think I’m a strong man, but when my wife cries, I feel so weak. I would do anything to stop the tears but sometimes, I know she just has to let them out.
I turn her in her seat so she’s sitting sideways in the truck. I fit my hips between her legs, trying to get close to her. “Talk to me, Em.”
She shrugs. “I wanted our baby to have a family. I wanted him or her to always have someone they can depend on.”
I think about my parents that live across the country and I know that a grandbaby is not going to change the way they do things. They probably still won’t come around.
“They will have a family.” She shakes her head, but that doesn’t stop me. “Think about it. Our children are going to have the best kind of family, Em. Look at all the uncles that will protect her—”
“Her? You keep saying her,” she says.
I nod. “Yeah, I’m sure we’re having a girl. Elias, Davis, Jason, all the guys are going to be her family. Walker and Brook, they’ll probably want to be honorary godparents. I know we don’t have the normal ordinary family, Em, but I like to think what we have is better. These are people that love us and will do anything for us.”
Her tears stop, and she looks at me. “You think so?”
I roll my eyes. “Em, come on, you know it. Fuck, Jason is making the baby furniture as we speak. Shh, don’t tell him I told you because he wanted it to be a surprise. Olivia and Abby both had shirts made that say Favorite Auntie. You know our kid is going to be loved.”
She sniffs and nods her head. “And then there’s us. We already love our daughter”—when she gives me a dirty look, I continue—“or son more than anything. I’m sorry about your mom, I really am. I know you had high hopes, but I’m still here, Em, and I always will be. We’ll get through anything and everything… as long as we’re together. You and me… we’re unstoppable.”
She leans in and kisses me. It’s meant to be a loving kiss, but just like any other time, it goes straight to my head, and I can’t resist her. I cup her face, holding her to me and deepen the kiss. When she pulls back, her lips are swollen, and she smiles at me.
I run my finger soothingly across her lip. “There’s that smile I love.”
She loops her arms around my neck. “I love the way you love me, Kan.”
“Ditto, baby. Ditto.”