Total pages in book: 105
Estimated words: 97557 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 488(@200wpm)___ 390(@250wpm)___ 325(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 97557 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 488(@200wpm)___ 390(@250wpm)___ 325(@300wpm)
I kiss her once, gentle, tasting, then again harder this time seeking, once more feeling the way she melts into me, the way her body loosens and she lets go only for me.
In that moment, more of the darkness ebbs away, leaving only Ely behind. I snake a hand between her thighs and gently part the petals of her pussy until I can dip a finger into her slick center. She’s slick, and wet for me. Good. I don't want sex but I need this, I need her more than I need anything else right now.
Shifting I align our bodies and slowly glide my dick between her thighs. She helps, canting her hips up enough so I can slip into her tightness, the heat of her searing me as I push deep and seat myself fully inside her. A small hiss escapes her and the air in my own lungs shudders out of me.
"This is for you. For us. To connect. It's not about sex right now. Just be here with me."
I nod, because she's read my mind. After...after everything I'm not thinking about sex or fucking. All I want is her here with me, touching the deepest parts of my soul, keeping me in place so I don’t fall down the rabbit hole and spiral out of control.
"I love you," Ely whispers against my lips. "And I’m here for whatever you need. I can be strong for you for a little while. If you need to let go you can. I’ll be here to catch you if you fall.”
I kiss her gently. "I love you, too, Elyse. This is perfect, you’re perfect. It's exactly what I need."
She nods, understanding in her gaze and I let my eyes fall closed and her fingers brush away the tears I hadn't even noticed I'd shed.
CHAPTER 27
ELYSE
"How many of these did you pee on?" Bel asks as I stare down at the newest set of tests.
"All of them," I reply, keeping my gaze on the tiny digital screen.
Bel comes to stand beside me. "Why take more than three if they all tell you the same thing?” The new set of tests, all five of them are laid out in a perfect line, next to ten other tests I took previously all flashing their readings.
All positive.
Fifteen tests in total that all say the same thing. I think it’s time to accept the truth.
I press a hand low to my stomach. Still flat, but soft as I've been gaining some weight back with regular meals and less stress.
Bel plucks one of the tests off the counter, by the clean white end. "Fifteen positive tests later… Are we happy?"
To be honest, I'm not sure what I feel right now. Having a baby wasn't something I planned...hell, I didn't think I'd live to be old enough to have children. But when Sebastian wants something… I’m not surprised it happened. A part of me wants to hold onto a grudge, to lay blame and be upset. I'm still in school, and have so much life left ahead of me.
It's not the baby's fault, though.
Bel screeches and hops up onto the counter of the bathroom sink. "I can’t believe I'm going to be an aunt. Should I be the crazy one, or the cool one?”
There's a soft knock on the door and then Sebastian steps in. His eyes skim over Bel, then me, and back to the tests.
"What's happening here?"
Whenever he walks into a room he seems to suck the air out of it. Leaving me feeling pressurized and waiting to pop. I clear my throat. "I think your shot worked..."
He steps closer examining the tests, before wrapping his arms around me hugging my back to his front."Looks like it did. I'll let Dr. Brooks know he needs to brush up on his delivery skills. Or find us a doctor to bring in."
I blink the heaviness of this all finally hitting me. "Bel, can we have a minute?"
She hops off the counter. "Sure. I'll go find Drew. He's getting things ready for the graduation party. I'll just meet you guys there.
With a wave, she saunters out and closes the door behind her.
Sebastian pulls away slightly, his gaze pulling at the fragile seams of my heart. His thumb strokes the edge of my jaw and I’m encompassed in warmth. "Are you happy?"
Am I? "Bel asked me that, too, and I don't know. I've spent so long just trying to survive, trying to keep myself safe, that I hadn't considered ever having freedom let alone a future.”
He cups my cheeks with both hands. "I understand that, and I’m sure it’s shocking, but I won’t lie to you. I'm happy. All I've wanted since I met you, is to make a family with you, and build a future together."
I shake my head and try to step away, at least long enough so I can think straight around the desire compelling me to drag him to our bed.