Total pages in book: 90
Estimated words: 86074 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 430(@200wpm)___ 344(@250wpm)___ 287(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 86074 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 430(@200wpm)___ 344(@250wpm)___ 287(@300wpm)
“You don’t like sex?” Dark asked. “Don’t you find it pleasurable?”
“Dark!” Light began, but Lili stopped him with a hand on his arm.
“No, it’s okay. I told you guys you could talk to me about your feelings, so I’ll be honest and talk about mine too,” she said.
She didn’t know why she felt so comfortable talking to the two big Kindred so candidly—maybe because of what they had been through together or maybe because she didn’t feel judged by them in any way.
“Well, go on then,” Dark nudged her with an elbow. “Couldn’t your ex-mate make you come? Is that why you didn’t like sex?”
Light got an exasperated look on his face, but didn’t say anything this time.
Lili could feel her own cheeks getting hot, but she had promised to answer their questions.
“Well, no—Mitch didn’t make me come,” she admitted, her cheeks burning. “But to tell the truth, he hardly tried. He wasn’t a very, uh, giving lover,” she added. “The man didn’t even know the meaning of the word, ‘foreplay’ if you know what I mean.”
“What? He was demanding that you have sex with him but he wasn’t even trying to make it good for you?” Light exclaimed, sounding indignant.
“Did he taste you, at least?” Dark asked.
Lili cleared her throat.
“Um, if you’re asking if he, uh, went down on me, the answer is a definite ‘no.’ Mitch didn’t like that—he said it was ‘too messy.’” Though of course, her ex had expected her to give him regular blow jobs, even though he never returned the favor.
“What the fuck was wrong with him?” Dark wanted to know. “How could he be mated to such a sweet, curvy Elite and not want to taste your pussy?”
“Well…” Lili was blushing harder than ever at his frank words. “I guess because he mostly just wanted to get off himself,” she said. “And afterwards, he’d roll over and go right to sleep.”
“What a fucking asshole!” Dark growled.
“For once, I agree with you, Brother.” Light frowned. “What kind of male doesn’t put his female’s pleasure before his own?”
“A lot of them, actually—at least human males,” Lili said dryly. “After I got free of Mitch, I had a few dates—all of them awful. So I decided it was just easier to, you know, please myself,” she added, feeling her cheeks get hot again.
“Well, there’s nothing wrong with getting yourself off,” Dark remarked. “But it sounds fucking lonely.”
“I’d rather be lonely than be with another Mitch,” Lili said, lifting her chin. “The years since my divorce have been the happiest in my life. I can do what I want and go where I want and my house is always clean. It’s wonderful.”
“So you’re determined never to seek another relationship with a male…or males?” Light asked. “Even if you found two that you liked very much?”
“Well…” Lili wasn’t sure what to say. She was suddenly very aware of the two big male bodies on either side of her.
They were both so warm and this close, she could smell their distinctive scents as well. Dark had a smoky, spicy scent like a campfire at night and Light smelled like fresh cut cedar. Both of them had a distinctly masculine under-note to their scents that seemed to draw her to them.
She wondered why she hadn’t smelled them before, when they were holding her between them and comforting her on the couch. Maybe because her nose had been stuffed up from crying. At any rate, they smelled amazing now and she wasn’t sure how to answer Light’s question. But before she could, Dark cut in.
“There’s no point in asking her that—asking her if she’s interested in Bonding with us,” he growled at his twin. There was a bitter note to his voice that surprised Lili.
“What are you talking about?” she asked, frowning up at him.
“He’s saying that we can’t Bond a female to us, because we’re an Imperfect Twin Pair,” Light explained. He sounded sad about it, Lili thought.
She shook her head.
“I don’t understand. How are you ‘imperfect?’”
Dark frowned.
“It’s my fault—has to do with my fucking Re’thian Berserker DNA. It keeps us from lining up perfectly genetically, which is what Twin Kindred need in order to Join their shafts and Bond a female to them.”
“Oh…are you sure?” Lili asked.
Light nodded.
“We tried once before.”
“Didn’t fucking work,” Dark growled.
“So unfortunately, it seems that my brother and I are SFL too, as you put it,” Light finished for him.
“I’m sorry, guys…” Lili put a hand on each of their arms, trying to comfort them. “That’s tough—especially if you really wanted to Bond with a female.”
“That’s the thing—we never did,” Dark said.
“But of course, that was before we started having emotions,” Light added, giving his brother a significant look.
“Yeah, fucking emotions.” Dark sighed.
“Don’t you like having emotions, though?” Lili asked. “I thought you were enjoying it.”