Total pages in book: 62
Estimated words: 60852 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 304(@200wpm)___ 243(@250wpm)___ 203(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 60852 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 304(@200wpm)___ 243(@250wpm)___ 203(@300wpm)
He moves quickly, taking hold of my shoulders and hauling me close, his eyes flashing with rage and jealousy. “Don’t,” he warns, “don’t say that to me.”
“Oh.” I laugh, bitterly. “It’s okay for you to fuck another woman, but the very thought of me moving on makes you crazy. Just imagine, for a single second, how I feel right now.”
His jaw ticks, but he doesn’t let me go.
“Just imagine,” I hiss, leaning in close, “his cock deep inside me every single night as I moan his name.”
“Fuckin’ stop,” he warns.
“His mouth between my legs as my fingers clutch the sheets, panting for more.”
“Enough,” he roars, shaking me a little.
I lean in closer. “His babies, growing inside my belly as he becomes a father to yours.”
He shoves me back, causing me to stumble out of the door and into the hall. My back presses against the wall, and I gasp as the air is knocked out of me. Meeting his gaze, I stare at him in shock and hurt, but knowing at the same time, I wanted that from him. I wanted to drive him to the edge. I want him to feel just a little of what he’s making me feel.
Panting, his fists are balled by his sides as his eyes widen, shocked at what he has done.
Curling my hands into fists, I swipe away the tears from my cheeks. “I want a divorce,” I say, my voice steady and unwavering.
Turning, I take one shaky step, then another, moving down the hall as my knees begin to tremble. It takes everything in me not to collapse, not to turn and run back when he bellows my name, his voice broken and empty. I want to hold him, to run to him, but I don’t, I don’t because I have to be strong now.
For me.
For my kids.
I have to let Muff go, even if it’s the hardest thing I’ll ever do.
It’s time for this to be over.
For good.
14 – Muff
“TEST. NOW.”
My voice is ragged as I stare at Harper, frustrated. I’m angry that she went to Janine instead of me. There is no way that was out of the goodness of her heart. She wanted Janine to know, in hopes that I’d take her back. It was a low blow, and not something I’m going to forgive easily.
Harper stares at me, the pregnancy test I just thrust at her in her hands as she looks to me with wide eyes. We’ve been here before, a long fucking time ago, only when it happened before, I wanted it. God, did I want it. I wanted her to be pregnant so we could be a family, especially after we lost Charlie. It seemed like the whole world was on my side back then, and now it’s making me pay for all the bad things I’ve done.
“We’re so young,” Harper whispers, her hand shaking as she waits for the lines to show up on the test. “I wanted to travel first, wait a while ...”
“It’ll be okay,” I murmur, squeezing her hand. “If you’re pregnant, we’ll deal with it. We’ll make it work. I love you, Harper, and we’re goin’ to be a family.”
Looking to me, she smiles up through those thick lashes. “Baby Brian, I’m not sure that’s a good idea or not.”
I chuckle. “Well, one thing is for certain, you won’t be lonely because that little sucker will keep you on your toes.”
She giggles, holding the test. “I don’t know if I’m going to be relieved or disappointed if this is negative. Part of me likes the idea of us being a family, and the other part wants to keep you for myself a little longer.”
I turn her face to mine, bringing my lips down on hers. “I’ll always be yours. Nothin’ in this world will ever change that.”
“Do you remember the last time we sat in this same spot?” Harper murmurs, taking the test in her hand and turning toward the bathroom. “You were so happy.”
“Things were different then,” I say, my voice clipped. “You know that.”
“Why do they have to be different now?”
She pauses, staring at me with a hopeful expression.
“You went to Janine, knowing that it would break her.”
Harper shakes her head. “No, I didn’t. I wanted to tell her how sorry I was, it was never meant to be cruel. It just ... It just came out.”
“Yeah, well, now you’ve fuckin’ made things harder for me. Do you understand?”
She bites her lip. “I’m sorry, Brian. I never ... I never meant to do that.”
“I’m not sure I believe that.”
She jerks, shocked. “You think I’d hurt her on purpose to get what I want?”
“The Harper I used to know wouldn’t, but I don’t know you now. So much has changed.”
She takes a step toward me, but I put up my hand. “I haven’t changed, Brian. I’m the same girl you loved, and I always will be. I truly didn’t mean to cause so much pain.”