Total pages in book: 66
Estimated words: 61190 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 306(@200wpm)___ 245(@250wpm)___ 204(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 61190 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 306(@200wpm)___ 245(@250wpm)___ 204(@300wpm)
I lowered my eyes. My own self-image was something that I had struggled with for years, and I didn’t see that changing any time soon. It was nice to know that my husband of so many years was still so attracted to me, though. I worried about that at times when he was gone for so long.
“I just don’t want to do anything that’ll hurt our marriage, especially since we’re trying to strengthen it,” I said, switching gears to not focus on my looks any longer.
“Just think about it. We don’t have to do anything you’re not comfortable with,” David said before pressing his lips against my cheek. His lips then curled in a smile before moving closer to my ear. “Just remember that I love you no matter what. Even if you’re pressed between a couple of my guys.”
The hair on the back of my arms and neck stood up, my breathing pausing at the thought. I couldn’t believe we were talking about such things, but… I liked it. Based on everything that I was taught, I shouldn’t even tolerate it, but nothing was black or white. My life was in a different place than I ever expected it to be.
Sometimes, I had to go with the flow, even if it was taking me in a direction that I didn’t expect.
“I’ll… think about it,” I agreed once I caught my breath.
David smiled and placed his forefinger against my jaw, turning my head so that he could press his lips against mine in a sweet kiss. When we broke apart, he gave me a warm, encouraging look before getting out of bed and grabbing a fresh white t-shirt to wear for the day.
“Good. Just rest today, okay? We can’t do anything until we hear back from the rebel group, so we’ll just be doing a little recon,” he told me.
I supposed it wouldn’t hurt to lie in bed for a little while longer until my headache went away.
“Okay, I’ll be up in a little while,” I replied, sharing a small smile with him as he finished getting dressed.
David walked over to me and cupped the back of my head, leaning down to press a lingering kiss against my lips.
“Love you,” he murmured.
“Love you,” I said, my heart fluttering. Things already felt so much better between us, and I hoped that this new arrangement we might have didn’t mess it all up.
When David walked out and shut the door behind him, I sank back down into my pillow, staring up at the ceiling as my mind quickly wandered. What if we really did move forward with this arrangement, and I slept with the other guys?
Warmth steadily burned beneath my skin and low in my stomach as I tried to imagine what sex with multiple men would be like. Overwhelming, right? But maybe in a good way. It went against my upbringing and the notion of sex only with my husband, but… it still uncontrollably turned me on, especially since David wanted to watch and was so on board with it.
I closed my eyes and slowly slid my hand under the covers, trailing down my still bare body. My fingers slipped between my thighs, encouraging them to part as my mind wandered to a scenario of being with two guys. Aziel and Amir. Was David really serious about that pairing?
Arousal thrummed through me at the thought as I slid my fingertips through my folds, already feeling myself grow wet. I circled my fingertips against my clit as I imagined their hands roaming over me. Their mouths following suit.
It wasn’t my fingers. It was Aziel burying his face between my thighs, his lips caressing me. I pictured Amir hovering over me, his hands squeezing my breasts. A shaky exhale drifted from me as my fingertips moved faster, a familiar twisting sensation tightening in my lower stomach as the pleasure ramped up.
What if Andre joined his brothers? I pressed my teeth into my bottom lip, quieting the moan that tried to break from me. My free hand glided up my body to grasp my breast, my back arching in response. I imagined Andre burying his fingers in my hair, drawing me forward as he pushed his erection past my lips. He rocked back and forth, pushing deeper and deeper as Aziel and Amir continued pleasing me.
Working me closer and closer. Making me hotter and hotter.
A weak moan rumbled in my throat as I took myself over the edge at the same time as the fantasy version of me, warm tingles erupting throughout my entire body as I writhed under the sheets. When I settled back down, I exhaled slowly, trying to calm my racing heart.
But what if I made the fantasy version of myself not a fantasy? What if I made her real?
Blissfully real.
Chapter 9