Total pages in book: 66
Estimated words: 61190 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 306(@200wpm)___ 245(@250wpm)___ 204(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 61190 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 306(@200wpm)___ 245(@250wpm)___ 204(@300wpm)
I refused to be a cheater. When I was growing up, infidelity was taught to me as one of the worst acts a person could commit. Anything sexual outside of marriage was looked down upon and marked as sinful. Wrong. Dirty.
Just the thought of my attraction toward the other guys made my stomach twist in guilt. It was an automatic response. Years of being told that strict monogamy after marriage was the only right thing, even if other arrangements were agreed upon, had a chokehold on my mind. That anything else would hurt the one I loved.
And I loved David with everything I had. I wouldn’t ever want to betray him like that when he cared about me so dearly. Maybe we had a few issues because of his job, but he did his best to be there for me when he could. Besides, it would be a huge slap in the face to sleep with the men in his unit. The men he trusted with his life.
We were just drunk last night, and I was going to bury my fantasies and focus on my marriage, which was the main point of coming all the way out here in the first place.
“Woah, my head,” David groaned as he stirred beside me. He blinked hard a few times, squinting against the sunlight peeking through the curtains. With a wince, he placed his hand on his head, slowly sitting up.
I turned to him with a worried gleam in my eyes.
“I’m sorry about last night. I was just drunk,” I told him, not wanting him to be upset or think that I was going to cheat on him the second he turned his back.
David frowned in confusion at first before a look of realization filled his face.
“Are you talking about you being with the other guys?” he asked, seeming surprisingly calm.
Unsure of what else to say, I nodded, my heart racing.
David’s frown morphed into a comforting smile.
“I told you I was fine with it. Honestly, I think it’d be hot to watch you with them,” he said.
My jaw nearly dropped. Was this really my husband saying these words? We were both fairly traditional people, so this was coming out of left field for him. Well, for me too.
“Really? You’re not just saying that to please me, right? Because I have no intention of cheating on you or betraying your trust. Fantasies are just… fantasies,” I assured him.
David moved closer to me, reaching out to brush my hair away from my face.
“I think we should live out our fantasies. I think it’d be good for us,” he replied. “And I trust you, Bri. I love you. So, if you want to have some fun with the other guys, I’m all for it.”
I stared at him for a few more seconds, trying to read his face and make sure that he wasn’t lying to me. He wasn’t manipulative, so if he wasn’t lying to please me, he truly meant his words.
“I didn’t expect this. I mean, I didn’t even expect it from myself either,” I admitted.
David nodded.
“I think it’s perfectly fine to explore new things. Maybe it’s what our marriage needs, you know? A fresh spark,” he suggested.
Gradually, I smiled and took his hand. He was right. As long as we were both on board, what was the harm?
“Are you sure the other guys would even be interested in me?” I asked him.
From what I remembered, we were all being a bit touchy and flirty last night, but I chalked that up to all the drinks we’d had. If I engaged in anything with them, I wanted us all to be sober. I thought they were all attractive when I was sober, so I hoped they thought the same too.
But I highly doubted it. They were model status handsome in their own ways, and I was just… me. I wasn’t a size two, and I didn’t think that I could pull off sexy clothes as good as skinnier women. I wouldn’t be surprised if they weren’t interested in such an arrangement.
David chuckled, taking me by surprise.
“Oh, yeah. They’re interested. You’re driving my poor guys insane,” he said as his fingertips brushed down my upper arm. “You got your pick of the litter.”
My eyes widened as my heart raced from excitement and nervousness. I couldn’t believe he was serious. There was no way that all of those ridiculously hot soldiers wanted to be with me of all people.
“I didn’t expect that,” I replied. I didn’t think that I was terribly ugly or anything extreme like that, but I didn’t believe I had the looks to attract so many handsome men. It didn’t feel real.
David’s face softened.
“You don’t see yourself how other people see you,” he assured me as his hand slid down to mine. “I wish you did.”