Total pages in book: 95
Estimated words: 91864 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 459(@200wpm)___ 367(@250wpm)___ 306(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 91864 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 459(@200wpm)___ 367(@250wpm)___ 306(@300wpm)
I’d always been the type to go for what I wanted, to succeed and be proud of who I was, and I’d apparently taken the same attitude when it came to what was not only my first relationship but my first real anything with a man. I wasn’t sure how much getting head one time truly counted.
I wasn’t stupid. I knew part of it came from the bond we shared from losing people we loved too soon and the fact that Sean had put himself in danger for me that first night we met. Those things were part of the reason I gravitated toward him so completely. I guessed the two things combined were enough to make me jump in as sincerely as I had.
That and everything about him was just…different. More.
It was a few minutes later that Sean emerged from the building again. He climbed into the back seat with me and as the driver pulled away to head to my condo, he said, “I’m sorry about that. I know it cut our night short and—”
“Shh.” I put my finger to his lips. “You don’t have to apologize to me about tonight. It’s who you are.”
“What do you mean?” Sean asked.
“When we get home,” I replied. Home. I’d said that as though we lived together. What was Sean doing to me?
“Okay,” he replied and then leaned his head on my shoulder until we got to my place. It was only a few minutes’ drive from Lee’s place.
We arrived and as we rode up in the elevator, Sean reached around his own body with one of his hands and rubbed a muscle there. When I frowned at him, he said, “I have a sore spot. I must have slept on it wrong or tweaked it somehow.”
“Oh, I’ll give you a massage,” I told him. “I give excellent massages.”
“Of course you do. You’re incredible at everything, remember?” He grinned.
“Obviously.”
We got inside and I ushered him to my bedroom and then went into the bathroom where I had a large Jacuzzi tub. I started the water, turned and saw him standing in the doorway, leaning against it.
“Strip,” I said.
“Yes, sir. Always so bossy,” he teased as he began taking his clothes off. I watched him because I loved his body. Loved how it mirrored mine in the hard planes of it, the hair and the masculinity of him. It was amazing how I would love those things about him when I loved the softness of a woman too. But then, that’s what it meant to be bi so…
“What?” he asked.
“Nothing.”
“You strip too.” He cocked a brow.
“I’m planning on it.”
We took off our clothes before we climbed into the oversized tub. It was still a tight fit, but we managed to make it work. Sean sat between my legs and I dug my fingers into his lower back and smiled when he moaned.
“See? I told you I’m good at this.”
“You are the cockiest man I’ve ever met.”
“I thought we were talking about my ability to excel at everything and not my dick.”
Sean chuckled. “Funny guy. Oh fuck, that feels good. Now tell me what you were thinking in the car.”
I liked that his back was to me. It made it easier to speak. “You have a hero complex,” I told him.
“What?” He turned his head toward me and frowned.
“Fine, you’re a caretaker. Is that a better way to word it?” When he didn’t reply, I massaged harder, waited until he dropped his head forward to enjoy it and said, “Taking care of Lee is who you are. You want to protect everyone. You want to help everyone.”
“All I did is see my drunk friend who fell to his condo.”
I shrugged. “So? That doesn’t make you any less of a caretaker. You do it in the big ways and the small ways. If you didn’t, we wouldn’t be together right now. It’s what makes you my ninja. You don’t need to apologize for that because if you hadn’t tried to protect me, we never would have met.”
“And you’re not a caretaker?” he asked. “You’re the one who said it was time to call it a night and who recommended we see Lee home.”
That was for him and no other reason. Sean was kind to everyone. I wasn’t. “Because I saw you were worried about him. You’ve ruined me, I’ll have you know. I should be angrier about it than I am.”
Sean turned in the tub and sat facing me. “You’re very sweet when you want to be, Mr. Harris.”
I rolled my eyes. “Only to you. I’m beginning to wonder what kind of hold you have on me. You sure as shit felt like a magician when you showed me the way to the magic ass button. What other tricks do you have up your sleeve?” I joked but he didn’t take the bait.