Total pages in book: 151
Estimated words: 139803 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 699(@200wpm)___ 559(@250wpm)___ 466(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 139803 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 699(@200wpm)___ 559(@250wpm)___ 466(@300wpm)
I gasped when Axel slipped inside of me. “You get this with her,” Julian told him. “I just want to watch. She needs to learn to accept you while I’m present.”
“Julian,” I whispered. I wanted him touching me.
He shot me a soft smile. “I’m here, baby girl. Not leaving—not ever. And Axel isn’t either. Let him see you fall apart, baby. Let him see the goddess that I always see.”
I closed my eyes, a soft gasp leaving my lips when Axel nudged my legs further apart. “You good, sweet girl?” Axel asked me, pausing in his strokes.
I gasped. “Don’t stop,” I begged him.
He released a low growl before he began to fuck me hard from behind. He slid a hand around to the front of my body and furiously rubbed my clit. I lost count of the number of times I came. All I knew was that my throat was beginning to hurt, and my voice was turning hoarse.
“Fuck!” Axel shouted as he came hard inside of me, which triggered another orgasm. My knees gave out from beneath me, but Axel quickly wrapped his arm around me, keeping me from slumping to the floor.
“Fucking hell,” he swore, gently turning me around to face him. I looked up at him with a lazy and tired, yet completely sated smile. He leaned down and took my lips in a slow, deep kiss. “Proud of you, sweet girl.”
“For?” I asked, my voice hoarse.
He smiled. “For finally letting me see that part of you.”
I pouted. “But you have—"
He shook his head, cutting me off. “No, sweet girl, I haven’t. You’ve never completely let me take over and take care of you like this. You’ve always been so focused on Julian, even if you never consciously realized it.”
I looked over at my other man. His eyes were a stormy blue, revealing just how turned on he was. A smile stretched his lips. “It’s not just me and you anymore, baby girl,” he repeated from earlier. “You have both of us. Accept it, baby. The quicker you do, the happier you’ll be.”
Fear made my heart knock in my chest. “That sounds painfully like a good-bye,” I told him, my bottom lip beginning to tremble.
Axel tightened his arms around me. “No, baby girl.” Julian stepped forward and grabbed my face in his hands. “Never a good-bye. I’m not leaving you, baby.” He rubbed my belly. “This is proof that I’m always going to be here. I can’t live without you.”
“Just as I can’t,” Axel promised. He ran the tips of his fingers down my spine. “You’ll always have both of us. But if having us together is still too much, that’s fine. Your pace.”
“Just sometimes, we need to remind you that this is okay,” Julian told me. “When you start withdrawing from Axel, I will always push you two back together until you learn to accept this.”
“What are people going to think?” I asked him, my anxiety spiking.
“Shh,” Axel pressed his hand to my chest, soothing me.
“I don’t give a fuck what anyone thinks,” Julian retorted. “You’re ours. Anyone who doesn’t like it can frankly kiss our asses. And if they have the audacity to say some shit to you, they have us to deal with.”
“And we can be absolute monsters over you, sweet girl,” Axel reminded me.
Tears flooded my eyes and spilled down my cheeks. “I don’t deserve either of you.” I leaned my head on Axel’s chest and reached out to grab Julian’s hand. “I’m a mess, and you’re both so good to me despite of it.”
“Mess or no mess, baby girl, we’ll always be here to take care of you.” Axel tightened his arms around me, silently reminding me he was here. He gently gripped my chin and turned my head to face him. “But even if you’re a mess, you’re our mess. Don’t ever forget that.”
“I love you,” I whispered to Julian, but silently told the man holding me as well, though I couldn’t bring myself to say the words out loud to him yet.
Julian gave me a soul-melting smile. “And I love you, baby girl.”
36
I looked up when Axel stepped out onto the porch where I was sitting. He was holding a bottle of water and a plate with some fruits on it for me. I gave him a warm smile and set my sketchbook aside. “I was actually getting hungry,” I admitted with a sheepish smile.
He set the water and food on the table beside me before he leaned over and pressed a light kiss to my lips. “I know, but I also know that unless someone physically puts food in front of you, you won’t put that notebook aside long enough to get yourself some food,” he teased.
I blushed and grabbed the fork, stabbing a piece of sliced banana, bringing it up to my lips. Axel dropped into the chair next to me and leaned his head back, shutting his eyes. I pursed my lips as I ran my eyes over his face. “You look exhausted,” I noted.