Total pages in book: 25
Estimated words: 22760 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 114(@200wpm)___ 91(@250wpm)___ 76(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 22760 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 114(@200wpm)___ 91(@250wpm)___ 76(@300wpm)
My mouth still tingles from his kiss, and I wonder if he knew it was my first time. I can be headstrong and have some bite, but I’m finding that when it comes to having a crush, I’m so out of my depth. I have no confidence in this area because I’ve never fallen for a man before.
Luca has me believing that maybe he and I could be more. That this could go beyond using each other as a means to an end. When I'm close to him, I think anything is possible. When we’re together, he makes me feel that it will all work out. Only the second he's away from me, doubt seeps in, and my own mind turns against me.
“Lia,” my dad calls from the other side of my bedroom door.
“Just out of the shower,” I call back.
“I’m headed to bed.”
“All right, Dad. Love you.” I could tell he would turn in early. He looked exhausted over dinner and could barely keep his eyes open.
“Love you too, sweetheart,” he calls back, then I hear his bedroom door close a few seconds later.
At least I won’t get any questions about where I’m headed off to if he’s asleep. I’d rather not sneak out of my window. I feel like an asshole when I do because I’d much rather use the front door. Most of the time I don’t because I know he’ll worry over what I’m up to.
I darted off after dinner to get ready to meet up with Luca. That is, if he can make it. I heard that there was a small party happening tonight, so I know what that means. Women will be brought.
They’ll all hang out on the east side of the estate, where they have an area that is always set up for these kinds of events. The men play cards while half-naked women wander around the room. They openly give blowjobs and have sex while getting drunk and high. The parties are infamous and sometimes go until dawn.
I’m willing to bet all those women would have the sexiest panties and bras. I huff again before falling back onto my bed. What if Luca doesn't show? Then I'll know he's at the party. My stomach turns at the thought. I suppose there’s only one way to find out.
If I don’t show up and he does, then he would definitely end up back at the party. I shouldn’t care, but I do. I loathe the jealousy I’m feeling right now and hate myself for it. I shouldn’t get attached to this man, but that doesn’t stop me from getting off the bed.
I style my hair in a braid and apply some lip gloss and mascara. The sexiest outfit I have is jean shorts and a shirt that I turned into a crop top. It will have to do. Right before I’m about to pull on my shorts, I decide to ditch my underwear. If they're not sexy, there's no better option. Right?
When I finally make it to the boat dock, I’m disappointed when I don’t see Luca there. I sit down to wait.
“Crap,” I mutter when I realize I forgot the pen Luca gave me. Not that I would use it for this. I know it’s only for emergencies, but he told me to have it with me at all times.
I sit on the dock waiting, and time drags by. With each second, my stomach grows tighter. I remind myself that he said he'd try to slip away. But I know he won’t do it if it will draw attention or put either one of us in danger.
That has to be the reason. Not because he’s up at the party having sex with some random girl.
Would he kiss her with the same affection he’s shown me? When we kissed it felt so personal, but maybe he kisses everyone that way. I could be one of many.
After an hour, the sun has fully gone down, and I give up. I start to make my way home, but curiosity gets the best of me. I know this place like the back of my hand, and it’s too easy to sneak to the other side and see if Luca is there. I’ve done it before when I was bored. It’s how I know what goes on at the parties. I'm also good at getting around here without being caught.
Before I can second-guess myself, I make my way around the estate to the other side. I can hear the voices and music getting louder as I close in. On this side of the estate, there’s a walk-out patio. The glass wraps around, allowing anyone to see right inside the party area. No one has ventured out to the patio, but they have slid the doors open.
I spot two girls on their knees in front of one of the newer recruits. Their heads are bobbing up and down as they both give him a blowjob together. He has his phone out, recording them.