Total pages in book: 125
Estimated words: 121992 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 610(@200wpm)___ 488(@250wpm)___ 407(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 121992 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 610(@200wpm)___ 488(@250wpm)___ 407(@300wpm)
I finally texted him.
Billie: And to think I was so messed up at the train station that I didn’t even catch a glimpse of your sexy ass peeking through your pants.
CHAPTER 31
Colby
Stepping off the elevator, I found Maya waiting outside my apartment door. She smiled. I frowned. Two-and-a-half weeks had passed since the Stokes hearing, yet I still felt a shock whenever I got home and saw her face and not Billie’s. I dug my keys from my pocket. “Are you waiting for me?”
“Yeah, I was hoping we could talk for a few minutes.”
“Is everything okay with Saylor?”
She nodded. “I didn’t go in because I was waiting for you, but I can hear her laughing with the sitter.”
“Okay.” I shrugged. “Well, what’s up?”
She nodded toward the emergency stairwell door diagonally across from my place. “Do you mind if we talk in there? I don’t want them to overhear us.”
“Sure.”
Maya and I stepped into the stairwell. She took a seat on the top step and patted the empty space next to her. I reluctantly sat down.
“I heard from my lawyer an hour ago…”
I froze. “And?”
She sighed. “He didn’t know the outcome, but apparently a decision has been made on our case. The friend he has in that office saw an envelope addressed to us in the outgoing mail. She looked up our names in their database, and the status had changed from In Review to Closed. But their system records every user who goes in and out of electronic files, so she didn’t want to open the case.”
“Okay… Well, I guess we only have a day or two until we find out at least.”
Maya nodded and looked down. She was quiet for a long time before speaking again. “My lawyer said once a case has a final determination, there’s no longer a risk of the investigator coming around. It’s against procedure for them to do a home visit or anything like that once a case is closed. So I’ll move out tomorrow morning, if that’s okay?”
“Oh…yeah. That’s fine.”
She twisted her body and faced me. “Listen, Colby, I know I’ve said it before, but I’m really sorry for everything I’ve put you through. There’s no excuse for the things I’ve done, but it was definitely easier when I didn’t know you and Saylor. In my head, I justified my actions. You were just some guy who trolls strip clubs and brings home whatever vulnerable woman is willing to come with him—a user. So why not use you back?” She sighed. “But you are nothing like the person I made up in my head.”
I ran a hand through my hair. “Maybe a part of me was that person when we met. But whoever I was changed the minute my daughter came into my life.” I shook my head. “You’ve apologized more than once, yet I never have. It wasn’t like I went back to the club where you worked in the weeks after we hooked up to see if you wanted to go out to dinner. So maybe I was a user. And for that, I’m sorry. I would never want a man to treat Saylor that way.”
Maya’s eyes filled with tears. “The fact that you could apologize to me after everything I’ve done speaks volumes about who you are. Saylor is so lucky to have you for a father.”
“Thank you. That means a lot.”
“She’s a special little girl, Colby. I don’t need to tell you that. And so much of that has to do with the example you set every day. So many parents tell their kids to be kind and then show them something very different with their own behavior. But you don’t say empty words—you show your daughter the right way to live. Heck, she’s not even here to know how you’re acting right now, yet you apologized to me and showed me more kindness than I deserve.” A tear rolled down Maya’s cheek. “I wish I could have been a mother to her. I really do. But I could never trust myself.”
I’d always thought Maya left because she was selfish, but maybe I’d been looking at it wrong. “Over the years, I’ve thought about what I might say when Saylor eventually asks about her mother. I could never come up with a response that wouldn’t hurt her. But I think I have one now.”
Maya wiped her tears. “What?”
“When she asks, I’ll explain that sometimes walking away isn’t a selfish act, but a selfless one, that her mother loved her enough to want a better life for her than she felt she could provide.”
“Thank you.” She sniffled. “Thank you from the bottom of my heart.”
I nodded toward the door. “I should go relieve the sitter.”
“Could I…ask you for a big favor?”
I raised a brow with a smirk. “You mean another big favor?”