Total pages in book: 84
Estimated words: 80635 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 403(@200wpm)___ 323(@250wpm)___ 269(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 80635 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 403(@200wpm)___ 323(@250wpm)___ 269(@300wpm)
Marcus reeled us in again, asking Sebastian, “Did you cheat on your ex with Declan?”
“Nope. We broke up when I left New York for LA this last time. And maybe the thing with me and Dec feels fast to people, but it’s Hollywood, remember?” he joked. “Really, though, I knew Declan for a lot of years, but it wasn’t what it is now, and I don’t cheat. I’m not built that way.”
Neil was, and as much as I wanted to say that, I respected the hell out of Sebastian for not throwing him under the bus. That wasn’t his style.
“What do you have to say to people who don’t believe you?” Parker asked.
“Nothing. They don’t have to. I’d like it if they did, but we know the truth. I can’t change the minds of people who see what they want to see and believe what they want to believe. I’d be grateful if people respected Declan and me and gave us privacy, though. I get that I’m in a position where that likely won’t happen, and I knew that when I chose my career, which I appreciate more than I can say, but we’re human too. I’d love to not have to worry about people taking photos of us over my fence or bothering people at Dec’s bar.”
We talked about it a little while longer, Marcus asking a few questions and helping lead things along. I was ready for this whole fucking thing to end, when Corbin said, “I just have one question for Sebastian: you know you’re really hot, right? I’m totally jealous of Declan.”
Sebastian barked out a laugh, but his cheeks were slightly pink.
“You’re an idiot,” I told Corbin.
“Yes, but you expect nothing else from me. You’d be worried if I wasn’t, and I make things fun. Also…you’re totally hot too. No worries.” He winked, doing exactly what I knew his comment had been about—putting an end to us having to ramble on and on about me and Sebastian. I didn’t think people always realized how full of heart Corbin was. Yeah, he liked to joke around and talk shit, but oftentimes, like just then, he played a role because it was what was best for someone he cared about. While to some, he might be over-the-top, that wasn’t who he was to us. He was a good friend, more insecure than most saw, and someone who loved with his whole heart.
While most of our episodes weren’t live, we’d decided to make today’s. We wanted to get it out there quickly so we could then leave it all behind us, as much as that was possible.
Parker said, “How about we take some questions from people looking for advice? It could be fun—not just getting to ask The Vers, but Sebastian too. But no questions about them. This is for people wanting advice in their own lives.”
Parker read a few, which we all answered—one about monogamy, and another from a guy who said he was totally in love with his boyfriend but struggled to live with him because he was so messy—normal things like that, but then Parker said, “Oh, this one is sad. It says: ‘I was friends with this guy who is a good person, but I did something horrible. I was in love with his boyfriend. We had an affair. He told me he loved me, which was a lie. I know that doesn’t make it okay. I was still in the wrong, and what I did was a terrible thing. I regret it more than I can say. I know I don’t deserve his forgiveness, but I want him to know how sorry I am. And I hope he knows he didn’t do anything wrong and didn’t deserve what happened. I just realized that none of that is a question, but there you go. Maybe this is just my way of telling him I’m sorry, even though I don’t deserve his forgiveness. I wish I’d done better by him because he’s a good man and was a great friend. I wish him nothing but happiness, and from what I’ve heard, he found it.’ He signed it D.”
I turned to Sebastian, and from the look on his face, I was pretty sure D was his old friend Drake. While the apology was nice, I still thought he was a coward. He could have come forward and admit he had cheated with Neil, but he didn’t and that wasn’t Sebastian’s style.
“Not sure how I feel about this,” Corbin replied.
Sebastian spoke up next. “What he did was wrong, but sometimes, I think, shit happens. We’re human, and we make mistakes—even big ones. If he’s moved on from this guy who clearly hurt both of them and wasn’t honest with him, and if he’s heard the other person found happiness, then maybe everything turned out the way it was supposed to. I hope he doesn’t beat himself up too badly about it and makes sure to do better next time. We live, learn, and then it’s up to us to grow and not make the same mistakes.”