Total pages in book: 114
Estimated words: 108483 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 542(@200wpm)___ 434(@250wpm)___ 362(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 108483 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 542(@200wpm)___ 434(@250wpm)___ 362(@300wpm)
Mena says I cut myself off so I never have to feel this again—never have to lose like this again. Does never having someone to lose mean I’ll never have someone…at all?
CHAPTER 45
MAXIM
“And then Lennix says, ‘Happy holidays…” I pause for emphasis. “…Doc.’”
David and Grim don’t look as impressed by this last bit of information as they should. They actually look slightly disinterested.
“You get the significance of that, right?” I demand. “Remember I told you she used to call me—”
“Doc Quixote,” they both finish flatly, arms crossed over their chests. They’re slumped into the sumptuous sectional that takes up a quarter of the room. We’re at my place embedded in the slopes of the Aspen Highlands. Neither of them have immediate families, and mine… Well, it’s obviously complicated.
“Not all the time. Mostly she would just call me Doc, but there was that one time we went—”
“Bike riding,” they say together again, exasperation creeping into their voices.
“I told you guys about that?” I frown. “About the windmills when we went bike riding in Amsterdam?”
“Holy shit,” David groans, running a hand through his hair. “I don’t know about you, Grim, but if he says ‘Amsterdam’ one more time…”
“Yeah.” Grim reaches for the heavily spiked eggnog my chef has perfected over the years. “I’ll figure out how to chew my own ear off.”
“Good one.” David chuckles and clicks his mug to Grim’s. “Now, Max, you say Kimba is your main contact for the campaign, right? She still got that great ass? Did she ask about me? I mean, she and I also had a great week in the city that shall not be named.”
“Really?” Grim turns to him, his brows lifted. “You tapped that?”
“Dude…” David closes his eyes and tips his head back into the cushions. “Like one of my top ten fucks of all time.”
“Top ten?” Grim does look impressed by that. “Wow.”
“I’m sorry,” I interrupt. “But I was kind of in the middle of asking for your advice.”
“Are we still talking about you?” David frowns. “I didn’t want to say it, man, but Kimba and I had a week, too, and you don’t hear me going on and on about it.”
“Because it meant absolutely nothing to either of you. She passed her goodbye through me on the street and told me it meant nothing.”
David cocks his grin to the side. “But I bet she remembers my dick fondly.”
He and Grim bump fists, and their bawdy laughter echoes through the room.
“I was trying to ask if I should call Lennix,” I tell them. “She hasn’t called me Doc since I’ve been back. Hell, she’s barely looked me in the face.”
Through the floor-to-ceiling window, I contemplate the mountains. Nearby properties glitter with Christmas lights, and the moon hangs low in the sky like an Earth-sized ornament, illuminating the snow-dusted rise of mountains. It’s a scene from a holiday postcard, but it doesn’t feel like Christmas. Not really.
I talked to Owen and Millie and the kids yesterday before they left for my parents’ place in Dallas. The kids loved the gifts I sent, and I could hear their squeals of laughter and their cocker spaniel barking in the background. It reminded me of Christmases growing up, Owen and me running downstairs at one minute past midnight and tearing into our gifts. My mom and dad would get up with us to watch.
I had a fantastic childhood. I can appreciate that now. Not for the reason people would assume, for all the money, but for my family. I think I blocked some of it so the separation from my father wouldn’t hurt as much, but tonight, I feel it. Dad was busier than I could even comprehend then, but I caught him once assembling our bikes himself so they’d be under the tree when we woke up. He stood there with my mom, bleary-eyed in his robe, grinning when we rode the bikes up and down the halls.
I miss my parents. I miss my dad. I don’t allow myself to acknowledge that most days. The enmity has calcified between us—hardened into bone that might now prove too painful if we break it.
“If you don’t call,” Grim says, pulling me away from past holiday mornings, “you’ll just keep thinking about it.”
“And, God help us, talking about it,” David says. “So just call.”
Dammit, they’re right. I step out onto the veranda overlooking a string of pearl-topped mountains. I dial the number, waiting while the cold pierces through my thick sweater.
“Maxim!” my mom says, her voice breaking over my name.
Maybe I’m a coward. This was the easier call to make.
“Mom, hey.”
“I was hoping you’d call. I planned to call you in a few minutes, so I’m…” A silence thick with emotion builds between us.
“It’s good hearing your voice,” I say, forcing a lighter tone. “Those kids of Owen’s driving you crazy yet? They’re the loudest little monsters I’ve ever met. They drive me bonkers in DC.”