Total pages in book: 36
Estimated words: 32431 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 162(@200wpm)___ 130(@250wpm)___ 108(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 32431 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 162(@200wpm)___ 130(@250wpm)___ 108(@300wpm)
I picked at my meal with my stomach in knots. I wasn’t surprised that there was no question that I would see this night through. I’d accepted while sitting in the stylist’ chair that the whole day was like something taken from my most private inner thoughts. I’d secretly wanted this, but had convinced myself that it wasn’t possible so I’d pretended to myself that I didn’t care.
I didn’t foresee the contract and the fashion show, but all in all I couldn’t say I was surprised. I’d never heard of him doing this with anyone else, but with the privacy clause it was no wonder.
The meal was cleared away and we stood to leave. The pressure of his hand in the small of my back was a constant reminder that he now owned me. And why didn’t that thought scare me? Why instead of anxiety did I feel only exhilaration?
I wasn’t interested in all the material benefits I stood to gain from my alliance with him. My only interest was in the man himself. Would he live up to the ideal I had in my head? Or would he fall short? Somehow I didn’t think so.
In the car he didn’t sit too close, didn’t crowd me the way you would expect a man on his way to deflower a woman would. He kept to his side seemingly relaxed while I was a mass of nervous energy.
“We’re here.” Here was a house set back from the street on a well manicured lawn. It was too dark out to see much of my surroundings once the driver opened the door, but I didn’t think this was where Jonas Harp lived.
It looked more like the home a new up and coming married couple who made good enough money but wasn’t ready for the grand house would choose. It was well kept whatever it was and from the outside looked relatively new. He unlocked the door and led the way inside and towards the back where we came to a bedroom.
The only light was that of the moon as it peered through the windows that framed one wall. “Through that door is the bathroom you can freshen up in there. I’ll use the guest bathroom down the hall.”
He removed his tie as he said this and my eyes went to the room in question. He was gone when I turned back around and I walked to the bathroom. I always thought this night would go differently. I’d envisioned a wedding, a huge party, and a plane ride after. Preferably somewhere over the ocean, all culminating in some appropriately designed hotel room with a corny heart shaped bed and a Jacuzzi. My honeymoon in other words.
Instead, I was here. Granted the venue wasn’t what I’d imagined, but I wouldn’t trade the man for all of that and a trip around the world. I stepped into the room and hit the lights. There was everything you could possibly need there, fit for a spa more than a private home. I looked at the sunken tub but thought better of it. Though a nice long soak my help to relax me he was right. It was better to get this first time over and done with.
As I dropped my clothes on the floor and reached in to turn on the water I had the sudden thought that I’d sold my virginity to the highest bidder. But it wasn’t like that. I was genuinely interested in him. Before him, I’d never had any interest in taking the leap from innocent to kept woman. Not that I’d planned to go to the grave a virgin, it just wasn’t something I gave too much thought to.
I took my time with my shower, paying special attention to the pertinent parts. That glass of wine at dinner had gone a long way to helping me relax and by the time I switched the water off I had made peace with my choice as unorthodox as it was.
Chapter 6
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In the bedroom he hadn’t done anything as crass as displaying himself across the bed in all his naked glory. Instead he was just returning to the room.
I stood next to the bed not quite sure what to do with myself and almost jumped out of my skin when he came up behind me and placed his hands on my shoulders.
His hands felt large and extremely hot. It wasn’t long before that heat coursed through me and my breathing grew erratic. I felt as though I were standing on a great big precipice. Like my world was about to change in a most monumental way.
I’d saved my virginity not in the hopes of landing a rich man and I certainly never imagined a scenario like this. But I’d valued it when others were throwing theirs away like nothing special. I’m glad now that I’d waited, that it was he who would be my first. I dare not think about him being my only. No sense in setting myself up for a fall.