Total pages in book: 27
Estimated words: 24429 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 122(@200wpm)___ 98(@250wpm)___ 81(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 24429 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 122(@200wpm)___ 98(@250wpm)___ 81(@300wpm)
My stomach gave a little flutter thinking about him as I watched the girls dance and served a new set of shitty customers. Jesse and Kent had been best friends since 2nd grade, when Jesse pushed him off the slide and they duked it out on the playground. I guess that’s how guys make friends sometimes, because they had been like brothers ever since.
When things at home finally came to a head, and I got taken out of Mom and Dad’s house, Kent was already living with Jesse. Jesse’s parents had been killed in a helicopter crash on a training exercise, and he’d inherited everything. The moment he turned 18, he gave my brother all the help he could to get custody of me. With Jesse’s help, Kent fought for me in court and won the right to be my legal guardian.
That was my big brother. He had always looked out for me and took his responsibilities more seriously than our parents ever had.
And Jesse had happily taken on the same role. But, the way I felt about him sure wasn’t the same as I did about my brother.
I moved in with them, and Jesse became my brother number two. The man I could never have in the way I really wanted.
Chapter
Two
With Jesse in his office, I managed to fill my covered ‘coffee’ mug with Grey Goose and Cranberry without anyone taking any notice. Those burning sips between customers kept me sane, but I knew it was poor compensation for what I really wanted.
Or rather, who I really wanted. Who I had always wanted.
The day I turned 18, Jesse was leaving for his first full tour with the Marines. He and Kent had both completed business degrees, but while Kent saw himself at the head of some cutting edge start up, Jesse had always wanted to serve.
He’d joined the Marines, but even then he had his sights set on something bigger. Most people assumed he wanted to be a Green Beret to follow in his father’s footsteps, but the truth was Jesse always wanted to protect people. Even so, watching him that day and knowing he was shipping out the next, my heart was broken.
My girlhood crush had become something so much bigger for me, and watching him get ready to leave, not knowing if, or when, he would be back, had me once again feeling lost and abandoned.
The night before, instead of going out drinking with his friends and getting laid, he stayed home with us. Kent and I made dinner, and we all clowned around like we always had. The dark cloud of Jesse’s departure hung heavy over us all, but we made the best of it.
When Kent went off to bed around 1 a.m., Jesse and I were finishing cleaning up the kitchen. I can still remember watching his hands in the soap suds, his long fingers working in the water. The veins on the back of his hands stood up under the skin as he washed the last of the silverware. Me, standing there jealous of the fork he was massaging with the dishrag, that had an hour before had the pleasure of being inside his mouth.
Every once in a while, our arms would brush against each other, and I felt like a billion microscopic fireworks exploded wherever we touched.
I don’t actually remember the moment when it turned from washing the dishes to something else, but it turned on a dime. Every fiber in my body spiraled, every dream of womanhood and Pornhub was answered as Jesse leaned down, the tension between our bodies like a river of fire that we knew we shouldn’t cross.
The moment I felt his breath on my lips, it was too late.
We locked together like two starving captives finally welcomed to the feast. His mouth changed something deep inside, my innocence no longer quite so innocent. I'd always been so sheltered, so naive, and it had always been because of him. I didn't want anyone else, and knew I could never have the one man I did want, so I'd shied away from all contact with boys my own age.
There were only five years between us, but he was too old for me. Too wise. And far too much like a brother. I was the ripe, forbidden fruit that put herself into his grasp, and he took me just as I'd always dreamed.
Time seemed to stop as his tongue opened my inexperienced lips, swirling around inside and turning my insides into warm goo. My body felt like it was a light switch, finally turned on in the empty darkness, and all that light was focused on him. The fire that brewed deep in my belly threatened to engulf us both.
Within minutes, we were on the couch, the kiss everything I could have imagined. Jesse’s long, hard body pressed onto mine, his weight bearing down, and I reveled in his power. The fire in our kisses turned, and Jesse began to grind his hips between my legs, making this horrible, glorious, painful sound.