Total pages in book: 80
Estimated words: 75164 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 376(@200wpm)___ 301(@250wpm)___ 251(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 75164 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 376(@200wpm)___ 301(@250wpm)___ 251(@300wpm)
Seth was my heaven.
Three orgasms later, Seth dozed off with me snuggled in his arms. We were both exhausted.
I was in love.
Yep…love. I lay in the darkness contemplating my next move. I knew I’d royally fucked up and broken every office policy rule in the book, crossed all sorts of sex in the workplace lines, and fallen in love with a man who was more than likely just playing with me. Hell, Seth still thought I was merely experimenting. Would he have made love to me if he’d known I was falling in love? No, he would have more than likely run for his life.
The thing was, I wasn’t one to hide from the truth. Yes, I’d tried to convince myself what I’d been feeling for Seth wasn’t love, but now that I’d admitted it to myself, there was no going back. I had to tell him how I felt. If he rejected me, I’d have to accept that and deal with it like an adult.
And when I said, ‘deal with it like an adult’, I meant disappear and never ever face him again. That was, unfortunately, my level of adulthood.
The only question rattling around in my head was when to tell him. Should I wait until the assignment was over? Could we both be professional with my heart hosting glitter and confetti parties when I looked at him? Hell, I wasn’t even sure I could do another scene with him at Javier’s club. It had been okay when it was merely a physical act. Now? Opposite of okay, in my head.
Huffing in frustration, I turned my head to look out the window. We had a job to do and if I backed out before it was completed, I could make the both of us look unprofessional. That was unacceptable. On the other hand, was it something I could hold inside me? A part of me suspected that the very next time I looked into his eyes, I would blurt out my feelings, whether the time was right or not.
The skyline in Miami was beautiful, but I loved where I lived. Seth lived in Denver, Colorado. I lived in Scottsdale, Arizona. I wasn’t into long-distance relationships. This was the first time I’d ever been in love, but I had the feeling that there was a good chance I would be one of those clingy types. I most certainly wouldn’t have any peace of mind worrying about him taking another sub into his playroom.
Shit, what was I thinking? It wasn’t like Seth was going to fall in love with me—not the way I had with him. He was a player and as much as I’d fussed at him earlier, I was pretty much a virgin…at least in the ways of the heart.
As I stared at the starry sky and worried about the fact that I’d fallen for someone who probably wouldn’t love me back, the flash of light caught my attention. I lay perfectly still, my eyes drooping to half-slits and waited. I didn’t have to wait long. The flash came again, and it didn’t take much calculation on my part to realize the flashes were coming from the window where Landon’s men had noticed the telescope. They may have thought no one manned the telescope, but it looked a lot like pictures were being taken, or at least that’s what the flashes resembled to me. Was the fact that pictures were being taken even important? It could be perfectly innocent. Well, maybe not innocent but at least not connected to what was happening at Javier’s club.
I turned my head and looked at Seth, checking to see if he’d noticed anything. His soft snores ruled that possibility out right away. The first thought that crossed my mind was that the faster this man, whoever it was abducting and torturing the subs from Javier’s club, was taken down, the faster I would be able to focus on telling Seth how I felt about him. A part of me hoped this was it-that whoever was on the other side of that lens was our man and he was about to make the biggest mistake of his life. Suddenly, my stomach growled loud enough that I was afraid it might have woken Seth up. I glanced over again, smiled when I heard another snore, and decided that fixing myself a sandwich while I waited to see if Landon called with any instructions wouldn’t be a bad idea. There was also something else I needed to take care of…just in case things didn’t go perfect with our mission.
My decision made, I slipped out of the bed as quietly as possible, snatched up the scrubs I’d worn home from the hospital, grabbed a T—shirt and crept out of the bedroom. Inside the living room, I put the clothes on, moved to the kitchen and fixed my sandwich, then grabbed some paper so I could tell Seth how I truly felt about him and what we’d shared. I didn’t want to push myself on him, but still wanted him to know how I felt. As it turned out, I wasn’t much of a romantic scholar, so the words turned out to be nothing more than a jumbled mess. Feeling frustrated, I assured myself I’d make the time to do a better job expressing my feelings. As I chewed my sandwich, I looked around the room for a place to tuck the letter until I was ready to give it to him or where he could easily find it if something went wrong. Seth’ cell started ringing before I was able to find a spot. I dropped the paper on the countertop and quickly scooped up the phone, making sure to turn my body away from the window so whoever was watching wouldn’t be able to see I was on the phone.