Total pages in book: 144
Estimated words: 147415 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 737(@200wpm)___ 590(@250wpm)___ 491(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 147415 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 737(@200wpm)___ 590(@250wpm)___ 491(@300wpm)
First, it’s breakfast with my parents and Lena, my maid of honor.
Eliza cries happily over the world’s most delicious strawberry shortcake waffles.
I cry.
We all cry.
Tears of joy, of course.
This sense of giddy rightness with the world, of belonging, of being ecstatic with something so perfect.
And I know I deserve this happiness, too.
I’m just thrilled that the people I love are here to share it with me.
Soon, Dad and I duck out for a quick stop at the memorial where Mom is buried. It’s just her ashes in this mausoleum. Her real memorial is in Hawaii.
Although we weren’t close, and she was gone when I was so young, I still try to pay my respects every so often.
Dad stands behind me silently with his hands clasped while I lay flowers.
I tell her about Shepherd and all the hopeful, happy things happening with my conservation work. I’m not Catholic, but it’s a little like how I imagine a confession might feel, and it’s fitting for today.
Not goodbye, but closure.
When I was a kid, I always wondered how weird it would be not having a mom to gab over wedding plans with or share my tears as I walk down the aisle. In times like these, I miss her, never mind the fact that I never knew her too well.
It’s a lump in my throat. Hard emotion that won’t budge until Dad lays a firm hand on my shoulder and squeezes.
“Come on, love. Wherever she is, I’m sure she warmed up to Shepherd faster than me,” he jokes.
We walk back to the car.
Later, I find out my mother’s absence isn’t weird at all.
Because I do have a mom, and Eliza bawls like a baby the minute I show up at our venue. I think I even catch Dad turning away a few times, muttering about allergies making him all misty-eyed.
The dress takes over an hour to squeeze into.
I went for a white slip, roaring twenties style.
Lena wears an orange jumpsuit dress she loves as she fusses over me and brushes Molly. I’m a little glad I don’t know what Shepherd’s wearing.
By the time we get to the docks in the stretch limo, I’m fizzing with excitement.
We’ve gone for a water wedding. What else?
That means ignoring the blustery weather and venturing out on the Puget Sound.
It's where our story began, out on the water, the day I bumped heads with a man who only had a kayak and a death wish.
It feels right having our wedding here, even if it’s a chill autumn day.
Eliza and Lena fuss over me like bees, making sure my veil is perfect, not caring that the wind will probably blow everything out of place. Dad stands in the corner with Molly and my little siblings, watching them as they stroke the husky and get a thousand face licks back.
“Are you ready?” he asks once Eliza goes back to her seat and it’s just us.
The deck sways gently underneath us with the swell, but surprisingly, my mind doesn't go back to that stormy, scary evening.
Adriana Cerva has lost her power over us.
My chest fills with so much happiness I’m pretty sure it’s close to actual bodily harm.
I don’t care.
“Sunshine on my Shoulders” begins playing gently from the speakers with everyone assembled.
I squeeze Dad’s arm as we turn, step onto the main deck, and walk up the makeshift aisle.
We’re just in time for an afternoon sun full of oranges and yellows, emerging from a slate-grey Seattle wall of clouds.
It’s brilliant and extra special for this time of year, but it’s got nothing on him.
Shepherd waits for me like a god made flesh.
His eyes are blue smolder, his hands clasped in front of him. His fitted suit looks sewn on, and his shoulders span the horizon.
But I’m not really looking at that beyond a glance.
The only thing I really see is his smile.
Wide.
Open.
Beaming, just for me.
You’d better believe I’m smiling right back with my entire soul.
I love you!
His smile says it back. So does the pressure of his hand against mine as Dad hands me over with a murmured, “Treat her well, Foster. Or else.”
So does the way his fingers slide through mine.
So does the deep cadence of his voice as the ceremony begins and lurches forward in a haze, and before I know it, he’s saying his vows.
When we first met, we truly thought the worst of each other.
He thought I was vain and nosy and a spoiled brat.
I thought he was heartless and crude, a typical hardass CEO who only cared about money and nothing more.
Then we accidentally gave ourselves a second chance.
Thank God.
He chose to see me for who I am, and I saw past his defensive façade, straight to the vast, vulnerable lion’s heart underneath.
We fell in love and the rest is history.
This is our whole future, standing here in front of everyone we love, declaring our love to the world.