Total pages in book: 86
Estimated words: 81423 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 407(@200wpm)___ 326(@250wpm)___ 271(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 81423 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 407(@200wpm)___ 326(@250wpm)___ 271(@300wpm)
On my heart you left your mark
You are my solace
The soft place where I fall
It doesn’t matter how high I build them
You find a way to tear down my walls
Your breath against my skin
I taste the sunrise in your kiss
You make me feel beautiful
Your lips on my freckles I miss
When you’re away, I need you to stay
By my side, help me fight
Your head in my lap
While I write all night
All my secrets, all of you
Pours out of me
Pen to paper
Don’t you see?
How much I love you
Yes, I know you see
You’re my solace
The soft place where I fall
It doesn’t matter how high I build them
You find a way to tear down my walls
We’ve lost so much time, yeah, so much time
I won’t walk away this time, not from my solace
My soft place to fall
When the show ended, I turned around to see everyone from the party standing in the room behind me. Some stood there openmouthed. Others were crying, and when I locked eyes with my mom, I saw she was one of them.
There were only a few times in my life I’d seen my mother cry. She was too proud. She definitely didn’t do it in front of others.
“You’ve been in love with that boy all this time?” she asked.
“Yeah.” I shrugged. “He’s it for me, Mom.”
When she smiled, it reached her eyes, and I knew she got it. That all that mattered was how I felt. She saw how much I loved Remy and that he loved me back. “I can’t wait to meet him. I’m so proud of you.”
In that moment, everything was damn near perfect. The only thing missing was Remy.
CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
Remington
My family and I were just getting backstage after the show, when my cell vibrated. My hand shook as I pulled it out of my pocket, knowing it was Law’s name I would see on the screen.
The second I answered, he said, “I love you.”
“I know.”
“I can’t believe you did that. I hope you know you didn’t have to do that for me. I never wanted to push you. I’d wait for you. No matter how long it took.”
I had to press my other hand to my ear to hear him. My pulse was running a marathon, my family watching me with eager smiles. The truth was, no matter how much I loved Law, I didn’t do it for him. “I did it for myself,” I answered. “I… Can we talk in person? We’re in New York. Well, no shit, you know we’re in New York.” I obviously hadn’t planned this very well. The need to see Law was burning through me, fiercely, this intensity that got hotter and more urgent by the second.
“Yeah, yeah of course.”
“Go,” Mom said, and I looked at her. “Go.”
“Yes!” Leslie joined in. “Go get your man. We got this under control.”
Mentally, I began running through options—flights, train, renting a car. It wasn’t difficult to get to Virginia from New York.
“Go,” Martin prompted.
As all three of them stood there watching me, my excitement fueled me. It was ridiculous—it hadn’t been that long since I saw him. But now I was going to see Law as an out man. I had told my family and owned my truth to the world. “Law, I’m…I’m coming now. I don’t know exactly how I’m getting there yet, but I’m going to make some calls.”
“Okay. And, Remy?”
“Yeah?”
“I’m so fucking proud of you.”
I was proud of myself too.
“I know. I gotta go. I need to find a way to get home.”
I could hear the smile in his voice when he said, “I’ll see you soon.”
I said my goodbyes to my family. The second I got out to the street—thankfully, there were no fans—my phone rang. It was Steve, but I ignored the call. He and my record label were both blowing up my cell. I looked at flights and decided I was renting a car instead. It would get me to Law in about six hours.
I felt like I was bursting out of my skin the whole time. I muted my phone and concentrated on the road. The rest of it would be there waiting for me afterward. I’d spent too many years putting my career first, putting everything else above myself, and I was done.
It seemed like it took a hundred years to get back to Havenwood. I was edgy and eager and…ready to live. As long as the drive felt, suddenly I was pulling up in front of Law’s house, and I could breathe again.
I felt like I was home.
Law came running out, Bear on his heels.
I got out of the car, and then we were hugging, and Bear was jumping on both of us, and there was nothing in the world like this feeling. It was better than music. It was happiness.
He held my face in his hands, peppering kisses on my lips. “Remy, you crazy sonofabitch. I can’t believe you did that.”