Total pages in book: 42
Estimated words: 38490 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 192(@200wpm)___ 154(@250wpm)___ 128(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 38490 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 192(@200wpm)___ 154(@250wpm)___ 128(@300wpm)
I hadn’t let the harsh realities of life get me down, hadn’t allowed anything to change me, to make me act out of myself. In short I was fucking human and had a healthy respect for my fellow man.
But back then I had something sweet to come home to. Someone who’d kept me wanting to live and do more than just survive. Someone who’d helped me to see the good in others through her eyes.
She’d been the best part of me, and since she’s been gone there’s only dark ugliness left. I have no room for anything else that life has to offer. Don’t want any part of the fuckery, it cost too much.
I ruthlessly locked off my thoughts the way I’d taught myself to do. Why had my mind gone there anyway? It’s been a while since I allowed myself to revisit the past. There was no point in it. All that was back there was pain and misery. All roads lead to hell.
She was looking at me like she was waiting for an answer, so again I went with taking a sip of coffee, to give myself time to formulate an answer that wouldn’t make the peaches and cream cherry puff shit on herself out here in the woods with lil ole me.
Nah, fuck it, begin as you mean to go on. “It was kinda stupid. You like getting yourself in fucked up situations don’t you princess?” Her mouth dropped and her eyes went wide. Yep; not my type at all! So why the fuck can’t my dick get the memo?
“What? daddy didn’t pay you enough attention as a kid? Guess what, I don’t have too much to spare myself.” Even the dog knew that shit was wrong, the way he whined and put his leg over his eyes.
It was because of my reaction to her, the fact that I wanted to apologize, to erase that look from her face that I couldn’t turn back now. She’d thank me later. This was no place for her and I have no intentions on going back among so-called society ever again.
And why the fuck is my mind even going there with this shit? Why now? After all this time? I’d long given up on life, long stopped dreaming or wanting anything the world has to offer.
But within the space of one night she’d put me through my paces. In one night she’s taken over my mind and thoughts and have me thinking shit I shouldn’t be. That was no good for either of us.
I looked at her full on now no longer willing to play the nice game. I knew it, cream puff. She looked like she was about to break down in tears and run home to mommy.
Good, then I could get back to what the fuck it is I was doing. Which is what again? Oh yeah, getting her off my mind. “Nothing to say? Are you one of those women who don’t like the truth? You prefer me to sugarcoat shit for you? It was stupid of you to come all the way out here alone to meet a man you don’t even know.”
She stood quickly to her feet and her little fists were clenched so tight she was white knuckled. I almost snorted coffee through my nose. The little puff princess has a temper?
This is what she looks like when she’s pissed? Her face was red and her eyes were teary. I’m guessing this is the point at which she gets her way. Fuck outta luck with this marine. I gave my last fuck about three years ago and no amount of strange otherworldly feeling is gonna change that.
“You don’t have to be so rude. All you had to say was you didn’t want to be bothered. Or are you too afraid of the little princess to tell her the truth to her face?” Say what now?
“You know, hiding yourself away out here doesn’t mean you have to give up all pretense of civility. Enjoy the flowers. Harley it was very nice meeting you.” She actually shook the dog’s paw.
I was so surprised by the fact that she actually had claws I didn’t say shit as she stomped her ass to her car and climbed in. Good fucking riddance.
“Don’t say shit to me you.” Fucking dog looked at me like he was disappointed or some shit. He sauntered off the porch and stood in the middle of the yard watching her cute little car peel away down the gravel road.
He looked from the car and back to me before taking his ass off in the direction of the neighbor who was a good quarter of a mile away or more. “I hope he catches your ass this time, horny fuck.”
Shit, now she’s gone and made my dog mad at me. Fucking women just know how to fuck shit up. It’s in their DNA or some fuck. Whatever!