Total pages in book: 92
Estimated words: 86226 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 431(@200wpm)___ 345(@250wpm)___ 287(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 86226 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 431(@200wpm)___ 345(@250wpm)___ 287(@300wpm)
Phoenix wraps me in his arms and kisses me on top of my head. “Ani, this is final. I have nothing to offer you. This is not the way to live. I can keep you safe, and that’s the plan. Regardless of what you may think of me, I don’t wish you unhappiness. I know what I have planned for you might not be what you planned, but if you have my baby inside of you, there’s no other choice. I have to keep you both safe.”
I close my eyes for a moment, searching my entire being for the power to not burst in tears and beg to be loved. I have to maintain some pride. I have to do something. Anything but feel this pain and rejection.
Cold.
Survival.
Put that wall back up.
Just be a pain slut and nothing more.
Try, Ani. Try.
“Fine. Forget I even tried. Let’s just go back to the way it was. Fucking.” I tentatively press my palm to Phoenix’s chest. “Let me taste you.” I lower my hand to the bulge in Phoenix’s pants. “I want to feel your cock between my lips.” I quickly undo his pants, releasing him from his confines. “I want again.”
Phoenix stands still, never making a move to stop me in my mission. I consider this a sign to continue. I kneel, softly place his hardened cock on the base of my tongue, and close my lips tightly around him. Looking up into his eyes, I move my mouth up and down along his shaft. Phoenix never looks away.
I tighten my lips and work my tongue in small circles along the entire length. His taste, his smell, and his entire aura consumes me, but I focus only on the task. Nothing more.
Phoenix reaches for my hair to stop me. “Ani,” he moans. He’s losing control. Good. Let the man lose some fucking control.
I look up into his eyes with his cock still in my mouth. I lower my mouth down to the base of his cock and slowly back to the tip. Removing his penis just enough to speak again, I rasp, “Watch me, Phoenix. Watch me suck you off.”
I know he likes the dirty talk.
I know exactly what he likes.
I have been trained.
Trained. Just not loved.
Phoenix closes his eyes and throws his head back in euphoric surrender. I have won this battle. I smile wickedly at my success and continue my quest to please Phoenix like he has never been.
“No. Stop,” Phoenix orders. “This isn’t right.”
“Nothing about this is right,” I snap as I fall to the floor, not caring to stand. “I guess I am nothing but a fucking breeder.”
“I’m sorry, Ani,” Phoenix says as he lifts me and places me on the edge of the bed. “I know what’s best.”
I lie down on the bed and turn my back to him. “Fine. I understand. It’s just a matter of time until I’m fat with swollen ankles anyway.” I take a deep breath so my voice won’t crack and reveal my pain. “I’m tired. Can you leave so I can get some rest? I’ve been tired lately.”
“Let’s have you take a pregnancy test,” he says.
“Don’t bother,” I mumble. “I know I’m pregnant. I know.”
At least the baby will love me.
Chapter
Thirty-Six
Ani
As I finish washing out my mouth from my new morning ritual of throwing up my breakfast, the butler from Olympus Manor knocks on the open bathroom door. His presence doesn’t surprise me, even though I’ve only seen him a few times before, and always while he’s serving us food. And I had always been naked.
This time, however, I’m fully dressed in a light, summery floral dress with pink high heels. He doesn’t say a word and hands me a letter. The words on the note are like a punch to the gut, but they should make me happy:
A dove has wings for a reason and doesn’t deserve to be inside a cage.
~Phoenix
I haven’t seen Phoenix for a full day, which can only mean one thing. “Has he left already?” I ask, staring at my reflection in the mirror and leaning against the sink for support.
“He returned to Olympus Manor,” the butler replies.
“He’s not coming back to Seattle.” I already know the answer. I knew it the minute he had left the room, that what we had was over.
“No. But all the arrangements have been made for you to leave as well. Is there anything you want to pack or bring with you?” the butler asks.
“Well, that all depends. Do I have to earn my comfort items in this new place you are taking me to, or will I have access to a bed at least?” I ask with a smile. I refuse to cry. Absolutely refuse. Damn those tears that burn my eyes.
“Everything will be provided for you there. Mr. Godwin wanted me to tell you that you’ll have a generous allowance as well, so I’m sure you can purchase anything that wasn’t thought of. Also, there will be a full staff waiting for you there to assist with you and…” the butler looks at my stomach. “There will be people there to help with you and the baby.”