Total pages in book: 144
Estimated words: 135382 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 677(@200wpm)___ 542(@250wpm)___ 451(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 135382 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 677(@200wpm)___ 542(@250wpm)___ 451(@300wpm)
“How do you know I haven’t already tried it?” The minute the words were out of her mouth, she wanted to call them back. She’d spat them out to protect herself, as though saying cruel words to him could throw some sort of force field around her.
Because deep down she did know what Li had been trying to tell her. Deep inside she knew Brody wasn’t as arrogant as he seemed sometimes. Under that blustery exterior, there was a man who wasn’t sure of how smart he was, how worthy he was.
Before she could apologize, he moved into the space again, a sad smile playing on his face as his fingertips brushed over her cheek. “I know because you wanted me and then you were pregnant. I know because you wouldn’t have changed your mind and heart that quickly. I was stupid to think you had a boyfriend, but then I was blindly jealous, and I hope you can forgive me for that. Hell, luv, I need you to forgive me for a lot of things, but we can deal with that another time. For tonight, let me give you what you want. Let me do what I should have done that first night. Let me show you how good this can be.”
She was afraid. Afraid to want him. Afraid to hope that this could be something good.
She let it all go and focused on him.
“Tell me something, luv.” He leaned over and kissed her forehead, the light touch of his lips making her shiver. “Are you thinking about anything but me right now?”
She wasn’t now. Everything else had melted away and she realized that she needed this. Needed him. Tomorrow would make sense of itself. Tonight she was going to know what it meant to be his sub.
She turned and placed her hands on the side of the big tub. At some point he’d pulled the plug and the water was all gone now, but the whole place still smelled like the lavender bath salts she’d used. She breathed it in, letting the comforting scent wash over her.
She heard Brody moving behind her and tried to relax. She’d made her decision—to give him control, to let go for once in her life. She wasn’t in charge of this. He was. She had to trust him.
“Now that is a beautiful sight.” His voice seemed to roll over her skin like a warm wave, warmer than the water she’d sunk herself into. “This is what I missed out on. How much sex have you had, luv?”
She tensed, a vision of the ways she’d degraded herself flashing through her.
His hand steadied her, pressing on her lower back. “I wasn’t asking because I care how many men you’ve had. I don’t. I was asking if I was the only man you’ve had in the last couple of years.”
That was better. She had a good answer to that question. “Before you I hadn’t had sex in four years.”
He groaned. “Well, I’m going to make up for that because this is how it’s going to go. It’s going be long and slow and I’m going to know every single inch of this beautiful body like it’s a map I need to memorize. I’ll be able to close my eyes and know how many kisses it takes to get from your mouth to your nipple to your sweet belly to that pussy I’m going to eat like a starving man.”
Every word seemed to turn on an invisible switch in her body, winding and winding her up until she was sure she would uncoil the moment he touched her again. She managed to hold perfectly still as he traced the curve of her spine with his fingertips.
“This is a spankable arse.” He cupped her cheeks in one big hand. “Hold on to the side of the tub and try not to scream. Don’t want to wake the baby now, do we?”
Scream? She was about to ask why she would…and then a crack resounded through the room and she bit her bottom lip, biting back the cry that threatened to erupt. Pain blistered across her backside, the sting hard on her skin. He slapped her ass five times in rapid succession and then soothed his hand over the tender flesh.
“I know it hurts right now, but give it a moment. Let it work its magic.” His hand held the heat in. “Do you have any idea how lovely you are to me right now? You’re always stunning, but like this you take away my every worry until all I can think about is how I’m going to take care of you. How I’m going to make you crazy for me.”
That shocking pain was turning into something else. Heat and ache. It sank into her muscles and she could feel herself getting wet. She could feel arousal start to pulse through her system and she breathed a sigh of relief because she hadn’t been entirely certain she would ever want sex again. Since she’d been pregnant, she’d felt sexless and more like a mother than a possible lover. She’d worried something about Nate’s birth had burned out her sex drive.