Total pages in book: 84
Estimated words: 82271 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 411(@200wpm)___ 329(@250wpm)___ 274(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 82271 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 411(@200wpm)___ 329(@250wpm)___ 274(@300wpm)
Jay goes next. “Never have I ever skipped practice even while sick.”
Every member of TestME takes a shot, the rest of us basically stand there and peacock a bit.
“Never have I ever,” Eric looks between all of us. “Hooked up with a trainee.”
Jay takes a shot, Rae grumbles something under his breath, takes his shot, followed by Kai, Suho, Ji-Woo, and Kwan.
I nod. “Hey at least you’re in good company.”
“Never,” Kwan interrupts quickly, “Have I ever, kissed a friends family member.”
“What sort of kiss are we talking about?” Rae asks. “Because I kiss Kai’s aunt on the cheek all the time, if I don’t she slaps me.”
Ji-Woo actually laughs. “Okay that fits.”
All of us take our shot.
People seem to be relaxing.
Until Kai speaks up. “Never have I ever sang someone else’s song that wasn’t written by at least one group member.”
All the members of TestME freeze and take a shot, but it’s slow, and the eye contact is a bit menacing if you ask me.
I snort out a laugh behind my hand as each and everyone of SWT just watches them. Biggest flex I’ve ever heard Kai use.
Rae sighs. “I guess bonding time is over then?”
Suho snorts out a curse. “When did it ever start?”
He storms off, the rest of the group follow, still in their uniforms, and I just collapse back onto the grass and look up at the sky. “Think they’re going to try to kill us in our sleep?”
“Nah, too much evidence.” Rae sits down next to me with a bottle of whiskey, then hands it over. “Are you doing okay?”
Oh no, we’re about to have the leader and Maknae talk. He rarely has to have it with me, so he’s noticing something is off, maybe it was my outburst in the conference room, maybe it’s just my overall energy in general but now, he’s seeing things now that he isn’t in the studio distracted over the album.
“Why wouldn’t I be?” I sound defensive.
“Well, you just seem a bit… off,”” Rae admits. “And that’s more off than usual. You’re the quiet, brooding type, sensitive even—though I know you hate that word. But this is unusual even for you.”
“I don’t know if I should take that as a compliment or not,” I reply quietly.
“Take it however you want to take it,” Rae returns quietly. “I’m just worried about you.” I try to think of an excuse and then some honesty comes out.
“I started younger than you guys, all I know are trainee days since I was thirteen, so it’s a bit different now that the world is watching. Groups pretend to like us but hate us at the same time, those that support us are only the ones that either look up to us, or are on the same level, we can’t make one misstep. It just feels fake, and sometimes, I wish we weren’t giants with everyone wishing we’d fall off their own beanstalk.”
“Nice reference, I approve.”
“Thank you.” I pound his fist.
“And that’s all?”” He pushes as his eyes search mine.
“That’s all.” I smile and try to reassure him.
He keeps my gaze for a minute and I just can’t take it anymore. “I’m gonna go write for a bit.”
I start to get up when he grabs my wrist. “What?
His brown eyes search mine like he’s seeing something else. “You know you can tell me anything right?”
I clench my teeth. “Yeah, I know.”
He’s still holding onto me. “Anything, there’s no boundary you could cross that I wouldn’t listen and be on your side.”
“Wow, even murder?”
“I’m sure you’d have reasons.” He jokes. “Just stay away from my sister, because that might be too much.” A wink follows.
I feel my entire body go weak. I might actually pass out at this point of stress.
“There are some rules you know? I just, I noticed her watching you a lot today, I think she’s concerned but sometimes that concern can turn into something else and she’s always been the type of person to run to the rescue, she looks tough, talks tough, but she’s weak. She’s fragile.”
I want to defend her so bad, and tell him that he’s wrong. She’s not weak. She’s the opposite of weak. She’s so much more than he knows, but instead I just nod. “Nothing to worry about, I’m innocent pure Sookie remember? Girls have germs, plus how do you kiss again?”
“Swear if you bring out that bear one more time.” Rae collapses back against the grass with his bottle of booze.
I let out a laugh I don’t feel and walk numbly into the house. I immediately think about the sister he doesn’t want me obsessing about.
I’m bombarded with images of touching her face, tugging her lip, running my hands down her breasts, feeling her small hands tug at my pants, unbuttoning them and almost sliding them in.