Total pages in book: 154
Estimated words: 148220 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 741(@200wpm)___ 593(@250wpm)___ 494(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 148220 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 741(@200wpm)___ 593(@250wpm)___ 494(@300wpm)
February
Look, I’m finally upstairs! They put me in your old bedroom…and I’m not going to lie, I’ve been going through all your stuff. Your senior yearbook photos are amazing. And I don’t believe for one second that they called you “Stone” because of football. It was probably just that “Stoned Wall” didn’t sound as good. Also I read all the things the girls wrote in your yearbook and you were such a player! So bad! I’d cry for all the hearts you broke except all those hearts were used up dotting the ‘i’ in their names.
And Daisy says hi! I went for a walk with her today. Not very far, just to the end of the block and back. But I noticed that I had an escort who was wearing a vest just like yours. I’m guessing that was something you arranged, and thank you. I already felt safe…but that does make me feel safer. It’s you I worry about. So I hope you’re okay.
March
I’m going to start seeing someone. Just like you said I should. I wasn’t deliberately putting it off, but kind of waiting to see what would heal on its own, and then your mom and I were talking and she gently suggested it, too. Then she gave me the names of a few therapists who she thought would be a good fit for me. So that starts next week.
Also I told your mom everything! I didn’t mean to. And you warned me. But it happened anyway. I didn’t give her all the sexy details but pretty much everything else. And she said that she’s more proud of you than she’s ever been. Just so you know.
Oh, and Daisy says hi! She was just up here with me…I should have started recording then so you could see her, too. Crap. Next time. And Matt went back to work today. Maybe you already know, though. He said he’s not going to be in the field right away, so not to worry. But I still do. I miss him, and I miss you. And I’m not going to cry, so I’ll see you tomorrow.
April
Ooh, I got flowers delivered to me today! Aren’t they gorgeous? And they smell so good. They were sent by a mysterious handsome stranger, because there wasn’t a name on the card saying who they were from. Just someone who wrote, ‘Happy birthday, angel.’ So I think I have a secret admirer.
I also went to lunch with Anna today, and I’m happy to report that she’s completely repressed the memory of how she saw me that first time. I like her so much. Gunner, too. And we all miss you.
And Daisy says hi! Say hi to Daddy! Aw, that’s a good girl. Oh… Oh, wait. No, we don’t eat the pretty flowers. Oh god, hold on.
Ah, okay—I’m back. I’m not sure if this was a birthday present, too, but I just got the message about the piece of garbage you took out. I know it wasn’t the piece of garbage that you really want to clean up, but any garbage gone is better for everyone. And I suppose it’s selfish of me to hope that you do take out the right one soon, not even because of what he did…but just so you come home.
May
So the other day when I mentioned looking at the veterinary programs nearby…I’ve thought about it a little more, and I think I’ll put off applying to school for another year. I’m stronger now, but some of the work will likely involve bigger animals. So I think waiting will be the right thing to do, and in the meantime, maybe just volunteer at the animal shelter or something.
And Daisy says hi! Aw, she’s sleeping. Look at her. She gets excited whenever I take out my phone because she thinks I’m going to play one of your videos. So when I began recording, she was so disappointed that my face was on the screen instead of yours that she started pouting and then went to sleep. I’ll make it up to her in a bit.
Oh! This is also important. Since I’m getting around more easily now, Anna asked whether I wanted to move into your place. And I hope it’s okay with you, but I told her that I’d rather we get our own house. I have the money from my grandpa’s farm and all that stuff in storage, so I was thinking about looking around for a property to either rent or buy. I know that’s a big decision for one person to make for the whole team. So if you really hate the idea, will you try to let me know? Otherwise I’ll start looking for a place that will hopefully suit us both.
June
Daisy says hi! And look! We found a house off Newberry Road. Here’s a picture of it, if you can make any of that out…but Anna says to just tell you that it’s the old Roberts’ place. I loved all the open space inside and the yard for Daisy, and Gunner says the garage is perfect for you, so I hope you’ll like it.