Total pages in book: 146
Estimated words: 147801 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 739(@200wpm)___ 591(@250wpm)___ 493(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 147801 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 739(@200wpm)___ 591(@250wpm)___ 493(@300wpm)
A few people message me, and I ignore them, too, but one catches my interest.
QuietRage
Hey, man, I’m actually going through the exact same thing right now. I’ve never been attracted to a guy before, but this one guy is flipping my world upside down, and suddenly, I’m feeling all kinds of things I didn’t expect. It’s confusing af, like my brain can’t keep up with it all and it's kinda affecting my day-to-day life. So, yeah, just wanted to let you know you're not the only one dealing with this.
TooPrettyForThisMess (What? I am.)
Thank fuck. It’s kind of driving me insane ngl.
Bcz u want it or don’t want it?
Idk, I don’t think I mind oral anymore, but even that is hard to admit out loud.
Ever thought of trying with other guys?
Why? U offering?
Nah, idk where to start with that tbh lol but heard from a friend of a friend that porn helps
Can’t watch that. I don’t find it hot like at all. I find all porn cringe somehow.
Man, you might be on the asexual spectrum.
The ones who don’t like/don’t have sex? Because I do.
Nah, ace is actually a whole spectrum. Like you might not like sex at all or you may only like masturbation. You can also love your partner but don’t want to engage in physical action, or you might be demi where you only become sexually attracted to the person you develop feelings for. Or gray which is like experiencing limited sexual attraction. TMI lol I’ve been reading too much about it lately. Take a look around. You might find it enlightening.
I’m still rereading the guy’s text when my phone slips from my hand, clattering to the ground as I’m yanked suddenly.
By Nikolai.
Before I can react, he’s dragging me toward the pool. “Got you!”
I’m soaked in a second as he holds my head underwater and his laugh echoes in the air. “Told you to join. Should’ve listened!”
Instead of flailing around, I just float still, thinking about what the dude said on Reddit.
Should I just try another guy. Is that it? Taste someone else’s cum and touch someone else’s abs? And suck someone else’s dick?
Why does the mere idea disgust me?
“You’re gonna fucking kill him, Niko!” Jeremy’s voice reaches me first before he pulls me from the water.
I suck in a breath, gasping, only then noticing the fire in my lungs.
“Pfft, it doesn’t take that little to kill my Gaz.” Niko headlocks me, jamming his fist against my head. “Right?”
I grab him by the head and shove him down, holding him underwater as he tries to overpower me. Motherfucker interrupted my train of thought.
See, I can beat someone bigger than me.
You just choose not to with Kayden, you little slut.
Fuck off, demon.
“Gareth?” Jeremy looks at me as if I’ve been possessed and is considering whether or not to call the local priest.
I loosen my grip, allowing Niko to resurface again, but before he comes for the attack, I lift myself out of the pool.
“Boo!” Niko yells. “Come back here and fight me, you boring bitch.”
“Not in the mood for your antics.” I remove my shirt and shorts, remaining in my boxers, then dry myself.
I run a towel through my hair as I grab my phone and head upstairs. My steps falter in the middle of the stairs, a rush of electricity bolting through me when I see a text.
Devil
I’m hurt. Are you seriously not going to check to see if I’m dead?
Me
I was hoping you were.
Ouch. Direct hit to the heart.
Surprised you have one tbh.
Full. Words.
TO. BE. HONEST.
Why are you yelling?
Because I want to punch you.
You always let the violence take over, baby. I’m starting to enjoy it.
A shiver goes through me and I doubt it’s because of the cold.
The fire that’s been consuming me is so strong now, I feel like exploding.
Don’t call me that if you’re just going to disappear.
But I was sick.
With pathological lying, because you weren’t home.
My, upping the stalking game?
Don’t deflect.
I was seriously ill. Had to be treated at a private clinic in Switzerland.
You want me to believe that?
It’s your choice whether or not you believe me, but I did miss you, baby.
My heart thumps so loudly, I’m actually alarmed. Note to self: find a heart specialist to fix this malfunction.
Your goddamn hoarse voice when you come haunts my dreams. I can still feel how the walls of your pussy strangled my mouth and it’s been driving me insane.
Instant boner.
“Seriously?” I mutter at myself, then frown because now, I’m turning into Niko, who loves talking to his dick as if it’s a person.
I wanted to test you, see how long it’d take before you messaged me first. I’d rather deal with your hot and cold than go through this again. Just thinking of you makes me so hard.
My throat closes when he sends a picture.
Of him fisting his cock through his PJ bottoms. Even though he’s not naked, the thin material leaves nothing to the imagination. The lines of his cock are clear in the picture and when I zoom in, I can see those veins—