Total pages in book: 41
Estimated words: 38483 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 192(@200wpm)___ 154(@250wpm)___ 128(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 38483 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 192(@200wpm)___ 154(@250wpm)___ 128(@300wpm)
“I miss being there for that,” he says, and my cheeks warm thinking about the times I breastfed with him holding me. “Kiss my girl, tell her I love her, and I’ll see you soon.”
“Okay, night.”
“Night, baby.” He hangs up, and I click off my phone then gather my girl and feed her one more time before putting us both to bed for the night.
“How is it that you always manage to find the coolest toys for her?” I ask Justin, watching him the next afternoon as he sets up an infant-to-toddler rocker seat in the middle of the living room while Jenna sleeps in the next room.
“It’s amazing what you can find on the Internet when you look.” He glances up at me, and his crystal-blue eyes twinkle with humor. God, I love his eyes. Really, I love him. Over the last six weeks, that’s become glaringly clear. Even when he’s away doing whatever it is he’s doing in Vegas with my brother, he’s made sure to stay connected to me and Jenna with video calls. He says he doesn’t want to miss out on one second of our girl growing up—something that is definitely possible. Jenna is still eating all the time, and I’m still exhausted, but it’s all worth it. She’s already gained three pounds, is holding up her head, and smiles all the time. She’s also just as in love as I am with the man a few feet from me.
“Won’t you get teased by all your hacker friends if they check your browser history and see you’re searching for baby toys all the time?” I joke.
“Nah.” He shakes his head, getting up on his knees and moving to where I’m sitting to loom over me. “I’m smart enough to wipe those searches so nobody can find ‘em.” He kisses me, and I slide my fingers into his hair, getting lost in his kiss. When he pulls away, I feel disappointed like I always do.
“Can I ask you something?”
“Anything.” He smiles, touching his lips to mine softly.
“What’re you doing with me?” I wave my hand in the air between us. “You’re hot, smart, and sweet. You could have any girl you want.”
He rests his forehead against mine and stares into my eyes. “I don’t want any girl but you. Don’t you get it? You and Jenna are everything to me.”
I shake my head and stand up, forcing him back, then walk to the window and stare out at the parking lot. “You’ve spent the past two months proving that to me.”
“You’re saying that, but I’m getting the feeling it’s not a compliment.” He wraps his arms around me from behind and rests his chin on my shoulder. “Where is all this coming from?”
“The doctor cleared me at my appointment today.”
“Cleared you?”
“You know, cleared me.” I turn in his arms and look into his blue eyes that don’t hold even the tiniest speck of understanding. My cheeks fill with heat as I murmur, “She told me it was okay for me to resume normal sexual activity.”
He takes a small step back and slides his palms down my arms to grip my hands. “It doesn’t matter what your doctor says. We’re never going to do anything you’re not one hundred percent ready for. I’m in no rush, Aubrey.”
“Don’t you want to have sex with me?”
“Baby.”
“You always stop when things between us heat up,” I point out on a whisper.
“You just had Jenna, and your past….” He stops to shake his head. “I want things to happen when you’re ready for them to happen.”
“I’m ready. I’ve been ready. I just… I just want to know that you want to be with me like that.”
“Jesus, you’re crazy,” he says, and I blink at him.
“What?”
“Have you honestly doubted that I want to be with you, that I want to fuck you?”
“I—”
“Aubrey, all I have to do is see you to get hard. I want you; never doubt that. I just never want to push you into something you’re not ready for.” He shakes his head. “I can’t believe we’re having this fucking conversation. I’m obsessed with you, infatuated with you, in love with you. I want to fuck you, make love to you, eat you, take you in every position possible. You’re everything I ever wanted and more, and if you tell me you’re ready to go there, I’m ready for it too.”
Chapter 14
JUSTIN
“YOU LOVE ME?” Her pretty blue eyes fill with tears and I pull her against my chest.
“Yes, I love you. The moment I saw you the first time, I was infatuated, and then I met you and knew you were the one I’d been waiting for. The only question is... do you love me too?” I brace for her answer, unsure if she’s ready to admit to either of us how she feels about me.