Total pages in book: 124
Estimated words: 114936 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 575(@200wpm)___ 460(@250wpm)___ 383(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 114936 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 575(@200wpm)___ 460(@250wpm)___ 383(@300wpm)
I didn’t have a fucking choice.
Closing the door behind me, I leaned my head against it. “No offense, Kaius, but I don’t want you touching me.” He chuckled a little before moving across the room. Pouring a glass of whiskey from the small bar, he gestured to the bed.
“Remove your clothes, Cartier. We’re here to help you.” I wished I could turn back time and be back outside with Jordan and Christopher. I was not ready for this. No way! Spinning around, I squeezed the handle in my hand and went to pull it back open and run, but a hand slammed over the wood, keeping it closed.
I closed my eyes as bile rolled up my throat at the proximity of Kenny behind me. His lips touched the nape of my neck and I shivered from my skin crawling. “We’ve got you all night. We will start with the basics.” His finger came to the base of my spine. “Don’t speak.” He moved me across the room with my hand, pushing me onto the bed. I fell down in a thump. All I could focus on was the pattern on the ceiling above. Deep swirls indented into the plaster and flowers erupted outside of it. He started to remove my clothes, but I didn’t move.
“Cartier,” Kaius said, and I turned my head back when his shadow fell over my face. “You need to participate. You know the rules.” Fuck the rules. I didn’t want this. I didn’t want men touching me that I didn’t approve of. I didn’t want Kaius’ hands all over my body, touching me in the same places Keaton’s did.
“Okay,” I whispered, swallowing past the lump that had formed in my throat. I could do this. It’s part of it. I was Kiznitch. I was strong as fuck. My lip trembled when my jeans were being removed and a finger glided down the slit of my vagina. I wasn’t strong. I could feel myself slowly crumbling around him as every second passed. I didn’t want to breathe because I’d breathe their air.
Someone crawled up my body, hovering over the top of me and blocking the view of the ceiling. Kenny. “I’m going to fuck you to see what you’ve got, and then we’ll work on other things like…” His fat penis rammed inside of me and I wailed a little, tears prickling the corner of my eyes. He drew out. “…how to use sex as a weapon. How to harness the pain people give you and use it to strengthen your mind.” He jack-knifed inside of me relentlessly, and when I reached up to swipe the tears from my eyes, I hit Kaius’ leg with the back of my hand. Peering up again, I watched him standing above me, stroking himself in his hand.
“Open your mouth, Cartier.”
“I don’t—” He shoved himself inside my mouth before I could say my next words and I cried around him. Caressing the front of my throat with his thumb, he continued to coo me as they both drew inside and outside of me. How did I not know that this was what happened? Maybe this was why Delila was the way she was. Time went on. They threw me around, changed positions, and after Kenny spilled inside of me, Kaius released himself over my body and they both fell back onto their chairs, bodies sweaty and breaths heavy.
I stayed. Quiet. Numb. My choice was taken away, that’s what they taught me.
There was a knock on the door before it opened and a large shadow came into my peripheral. Turning my head, I locked onto Bam Bam.
He stopped inside the door, looking between Kaius and Kenny and me, before he kicked the door closed behind him.
Oh no.
I fall into Killian’s arms as the memory fades out, squeezing him around the waist.
He remains passive, one arm locked tightly around my body as if he’s scared I’m going to run away. “Rape? You and that piece of shit raped her?”
“What!” Kyrin launches forward and Kohen catches him by the wrist to try to stop him, but Kyrin swings around and punches him straight in the nose. All hell breaks out behind me and King grabs Keaton by the back of the collar, but I stay in the same spot. Unable to move. Killian dragging his talons down a memory I never wanted to remember felt like I’d been dropped into the pits of hell. I need to stay near Killian until my mind has caught up. I didn’t want to relive that memory alone, so for once, I’m thankful for the gifts that are passed down like a generational curse within Kiznitch.
I’ve never felt Killian so frozen. So sure. “Kill them all.”
“Killian…” Kaius blinks, and I feel myself warm to my surroundings. I’m safe. I’m with my family. I’m safe. I stand straight, slowly releasing from his body.