Total pages in book: 90
Estimated words: 91767 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 459(@200wpm)___ 367(@250wpm)___ 306(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 91767 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 459(@200wpm)___ 367(@250wpm)___ 306(@300wpm)
“Life changing?” He stops and my arm nearly rips out the socket. “How was it life changing?”
“Well….” I think for a moment. “I’m pretty vanilla on the outside.”
“You are not vanilla.” He cuts me off.
“No, I am.” I smile as I pull him to walk once more. “I’ve only ever had two boyfriends and…I’ve never had a one-night stand.”
He stares down at me. “How many people have you slept with?”
“Four.” I shrug. “Well five now.” I continue to babble on, “Well six if you count that one time I had a threesome.”
He chuckles. “The one you didn’t like to share the dick in?”
“Yes.” I smile goofily. “That one.” I glance back and see two men walking in the distance behind us. “Who are those men?” I ask. “Are they following us?”
He glances back. “Oh…. They’re from the resort. It’s standard for them to send someone with a client if they leave the hotel.” He nudges me with his shoulder. “In case I’m a serial killer or something.”
My arm is linked through his and I can feel his hard forearm under my hand. “How many people have you slept with?” I ask him.
“A lot,” he replies without hesitation.
“Oh.” I nod, I hate that answer, he’s probably slept with the most beautiful of people.
Insecurity rears her ugly head, what would he ever see in someone like me?
Then I remember the cold hard facts.
He didn’t choose me; he was matched with me. I was just the lucky number that got pulled out of a hat.
We walk for a while as my brain goes into a silent confidence crisis.
“So I have to ask….” He breaks the silence. “For someone as inexperienced as you…. Why would you pay to come to a place like this? I’m sure there’s a million men who would give anything to have you to peg them.”
“I don’t know.” I think for a moment. “I guess I was searching for something more.”
He nods as if processing my words.
“What about you, I’m wondering the same, why did you come here?”
“I honestly don’t know.” He hesitates. “Maybe I was searching for something more too.”
“What a pair of misfits we are.” I smile sadly. “I’m vanilla shortbread, you’re a chocolate fudge whorebag. You want to be pegged but you don’t want to be pegged. I need to do Misty’s list but when push comes to shove I’m not sure I’ll actually be able to do it because I don’t know how to work a prosthetic dick without disemboweling someone. We can’t know anything about each other and yet I feel like I already know everything about you. And I’m quite sure that long after spending this weekend with you I will mourn your loss while you will probably never think of me again because you are just the most amazing lover of all time and well…I’m just me,” I blurt out in a rush.
He stops us and turns me to face him and smiles softly down at me. “You have it mistaken, it is you who is the most amazing lover, why do you think I couldn’t stop last night?” He takes my face in his hands and kisses me softly. “Why do you think I need an extra night?”
My eyes search his. “I wish we didn’t meet here.”
“Doe…. “He sighs. “Don’t.” He pulls me into a hug and holds me tight in his arms.
My heart constricts because I know that’s his way of dismissing any chance of a meeting on the outside for us.
He already has someone.
As he holds me a lump in my throat forms, we’re so close but so far.
We don’t know each other at all.
“Let’s just enjoy every minute of our night together, okay?” he whispers into my hair.”
“Okay.” I smile, feeling stupid.
I knew what I signed up for…keep it together, fool.
I pull out of his arms determined to do better. He did not come here to put up with my whiny and needy behavior. I’m not his girlfriend, hell…we don’t even know each other.
It is what it is.
I came here to finish Misty’s list and that’s exactly what I’m going to do.
It’s time to put my heart in a box and sharpen my sword to prepare for battle.
Tonight…I’m going fulfill his deepest and darkest fantasy.
Who knows, it might turn out to be mine too.
If déjà vu had an official day, today would be it.
Mr Doe and I are on the love boat, we went for a walk around the village this morning, had a late lunch and an afternoon nap.
We’ve talked and laughed and taken a big hot deep bath and then this afternoon we had a nap, well I slept while he lay on his side and watched me.
We’re acting like an old couple in love and haven’t had sex once.
Or maybe it’s just that he had enough of my body last night.