Total pages in book: 98
Estimated words: 97448 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 487(@200wpm)___ 390(@250wpm)___ 325(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 97448 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 487(@200wpm)___ 390(@250wpm)___ 325(@300wpm)
Soft arms wrap around my waist from behind, and warmth clashes with the freezing water. Her small hands stroke along my sides and pectoral muscles as she lays her head on my back. I feel her lips on my nape, kissing me gently.
I want to turn around and look at her, but if I open my eyes, she’ll disappear.
She always does.
So I twist the wedding ring she slipped on my finger the day she said, ‘I do.’ I’ve been wearing it since I saw her body in the back of the ambulance. My hand feels heavy, though, like it weighs a ton now that hers doesn’t wear her ring.
“You need to sleep, Kirill.” Her soft voice carries in the air like a fucked-up melody. “Your body will eventually give out on you.”
Sasha sounds so worried in my imagination. She always was. There were times when I thought she went over the top to protect me, but it wasn’t until after she was gone that I realized it was her way of showing her affection toward me.
She proved in actions more than words how much she loved me.
I will remind you of the girl who protected and loved you but only got death in return!
Karina’s words stab me in my bleeding heart.
“If I die, will I be able to join you?” I whisper in the silence of the bathroom.
“What are you talking about? You were born for greater things, not to die, Kirill. You’re the Pakhan now. Isn’t that amazing?”
“No. What’s the point of being Pakhan if I couldn’t protect you?”
“You always had your priorities straight, and I was never at the top.”
“That’s not fucking true!” I whirl around and curse under my breath when her warmth disappears.
Fuck.
Disgusted with my own skin, I step out of the shower and wrap a towel around my middle. It doesn’t matter that I changed rooms. She’s everywhere. Her soul clings to every corner and every fucking person in this house.
But maybe that’s not a bad thing.
If her ghost fucking haunts me and blames me for her death, I’ll still welcome it.
At least she’ll be here.
I put on another suit and head to my office. The door opens as I snag a bottle of Macallan from the minibar. I don’t bother with a glass and drink straight from the bottle.
My throat burns, but it does nothing to squash the constrictive weight on my chest.
Viktor stands across from me, and I motion at the minibar. “Have a drink.”
He doesn’t move a muscle. “Boss. You really need to sleep.”
I lean against the cabinet, legs crossed. “Any news about the lead we got from Roel’s computer?”
“No. It’s a dead end. We suspect the sender to be from outside the country.”
“Russia, for instance.”
“I’m not sure.”
“Well, I am.” I swallow a long sip and wince slightly at the sharp taste. “I have a feeling that the Belsky Organization had something to do with her death. She admitted that she initially came to New York to spy on me—or, more accurately, on my father—but she eventually gave up on that and chose to stay with me. There’s a huge possibility that they got rid of her once they figured out she’d switched camps.”
“That’s only speculation.”
“Plausible speculation.” I slam the bottle on the counter, causing a few splashes to stain my hand. “I’m going to Russia to investigate this.”
“You can’t go to Russia with no evidence and no clue of their location, let alone their involvement. Besides, you’re the fucking Pakhan now, Kirill. Your position is vulnerable, considering you haven’t been in it for too long. Not to mention all the factions you’ve managed to offend in a small amount of time. The only thing you can do right now is stay and try to strengthen your authority.”
“I don’t give a fuck about that. I’m going to Russia. Make arrangements.”
“No, I won’t.”
I stare into Viktor’s dispassionate eyes. “Are you disobeying a direct order?”
“I am. I’m also telling you that if you go in blind, you’re only heading to your death. You were a captain in the damn Spetsnaz, you know good and fucking well not to move without trusted intel.”
“Get the fuck out of my way.”
“If you insist.” He pulls out his gun and tries to shove it in my hand. “Shoot me first. I’d rather die than see you spiral out of fucking control.”
“Don’t be ridiculous. I didn’t know you’d learned how to be dramatic.”
“I’m not joking, Kirill.” He glares at me. “I’ve been with you all your life and have seen you being tortured and driven to within an inch of your life. I’ve watched you rise above any hurdle that stood in your path. You got this far because you made it happen. If you don’t get yourself together and start acting like the Pakhan, you’ll be killed. Do you think Aleksandra would like to see you being this fucking suicidal?”