Total pages in book: 87
Estimated words: 83085 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 415(@200wpm)___ 332(@250wpm)___ 277(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 83085 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 415(@200wpm)___ 332(@250wpm)___ 277(@300wpm)
“I know that. You said it would just be us, and you wouldn’t go back on that. If I couldn’t trust you, I wouldn’t be doing this with you. It’s just… I hate that you might have wanted to. Because I wouldn’t, not with any man or woman who came in. Outside of biology, I wouldn’t want them because I don’t want people that way, but you do. You’re holding yourself back for me, and fuck, I hate that shit. It makes me feel like there’s something wrong with me, and I wonder if what we’re doing is enough because—”
“I didn’t want him!” Josh said sharply. “Fuck, sweetheart, I haven’t wanted anyone else since our trip. It’s fucking with my head and scaring the shit out of me because I’m not who you deserve. I don’t have it in me anymore. You’re afraid the sex isn’t enough with you, while I’m afraid I can’t be who you need in other ways, but damned if there isn’t a part of me that wishes I could. That wants to throw out all my rules, and forget my past and what I owe Doug, and just be with you. Sex is easy for me, Griff. It’s what I’ve always been able to give, and I’ve had a lot of it, but this, this is different.”
There was raw pain and anguish in his voice. I wanted to fix it. Wanted Josh to know that Doug’s death wasn’t his fault. I wanted to show him he could move on, wanted him to know he deserved to be happy, but all those words were a tangled mess in my chest.
So I covered his mouth with mine instead. Josh grabbed my hips and groaned into the kiss as I flicked the lock on the door and gave him my tongue. He tasted like beer and Josh, and there was nothing I wanted more than to drown in it.
Our teeth clanked together, our tongues and mouths a collision of want and need and hunger. I felt alive when I was touching Josh, like I was this beacon for energy, snapping and crackling with a lifetime of pent-up desire and the truth of wanting nothing more than surviving.
My fingers trembled as I went for the button and zipper of his jeans.
He growled and thrust against me as I worked him open and shoved a hand inside his jeans. Josh was rigid, a massive bulge against my palm, a soothing balm to my soul.
Jesus, what was he doing to me?
On instinct, I dropped to my knees. I wanted to pleasure him, to know what he tasted like, to experience everything in the world that I could with him.
“What are you doing?”
I looked up at him and grinned. “I would think that’s pretty obvious.”
“Hey.” Josh hooked a finger beneath my chin. “You don’t have to do that right now. When you have my cock in your mouth, I want it to be because you’re dying for me to fuck that sexy face of yours, not because of some other guy. I swear I don’t want him, sweetheart, and what we’re doing is enough for me.”
Josh’s words told me everything I needed to know, were a reminder of why he was so special. “I’m dying for you to fuck my face.” Saying stuff like that was so unfamiliar to me, but not with him. When it came to Josh, so many things felt right, clicked into place in ways they never had before. The fact that I was on my knees in my office with a full bar down the hall was proof. This wasn’t the first time I’d had some kind of sex there with Josh, something I’d never done with anyone and sure as shit hadn’t done with people there.
It felt electrifying.
“Holy shit, you don’t know what hearing you say that does to me.” Josh rubbed his thumb over my bottom lip, then around the top one. When he pulled back, I chased it with my mouth, and he gave it to me. I sucked his thumb like it was a cock and felt nothing but hungry for more. “Get those pants off. If I’m coming, you are too. I can’t wait to see what it looks like to watch my dick split your lips. And I want you to jack off. You know how much I love that thick cock of yours.”
My whole body began to vibrate, overpowering need ricocheting around inside me. Josh always took control, leading me with his words, and that made my desire for him skyrocket to even greater heights.
I stood up, and we quickly removed all our clothes. I went down to my knees again, Josh’s erection bobbing in front of me. I was dying to taste him.
“You sure?” Josh asked.
“Yeah. God, I want you.”