Total pages in book: 160
Estimated words: 158635 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 793(@200wpm)___ 635(@250wpm)___ 529(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 158635 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 793(@200wpm)___ 635(@250wpm)___ 529(@300wpm)
Right. She was often forced to stay in her brother’s mansion upon his order and there was nothing she could do about it.
“Can’t you tell him no?” I swallow. “Jeremy, I mean.”
“Tell Jer no?” She laughs awkwardly. “Have you seen him?”
I have.
Countless times.
And I hate it.
Because even when he’s not there, I find myself searching for his shadow in the darkness, behind the trees.
Everywhere.
“I did get some of my freedom back, so silver lining!” She smiles.
“Has he…always been controlling like this?” I realize that I’m digging where I’m not supposed to, but I can’t help it.
Maybe if I continue painting him as the devil, I’ll find the will to move past him.
Anni releases the straw and stares up. “For as long as I’ve been alive? He’s six years older than me, so ever since I was born, it’s felt as if I’ve had a guard from hell. No, a guardian angel.”
“Those are entirely different.”
“I hate when he confiscates my freedom, but I know he’s doing it because he cares about my safety. We…were born into a cruel world, and Jeremy suffered in it more than I did, so I guess he takes security very seriously and I love him as a brother. I just don’t like him as Papa’s heir sometimes.”
I rub the side of my nose.
Of course.
Jeremy is meant to be a mafia leader one day. That’s his destiny that he can’t escape even if he wants to. Considering all the violence he takes part in, I suspect he doesn’t.
That should be enough to make me forget about him.
Move on.
Even if my body refuses to erase his touch.
I grab a bottle of beer and chug half of it down.
“OMG.” Ava leaves Remi alone and wipes the side of my face. “Why are you drinking?”
“Last I checked, you’re not the only one who can.”
“You’re a lightweight, remember?”
“Leave me alone.” I swat her away as if she’s a fly.
“Yeah, leave her alone. Drunk Ces is much less uptight than sober Ces, and we love that beautiful bitch.” Remi clinks his bottle against mine. “Cheers to a truce!”
I drink the other half the bottle in one go and wince at the burn. They’re right. I don’t usually do this, but I’m safe here with them. If I somehow pass out, Ava will tuck me in.
While I avoid drink as to not repeat that black night, I don’t mind if it’s with people I trust.
It takes exactly three beers for my muscles to loosen, and I start grinning like an idiot.
Truth is, Remi is actually a clown and he’s funny. I’m just much harder on him when I’m sober, because he keeps calling me names.
We start singing karaoke, and I stand up to jump along to the music while hugging Ava and Anni, but immediately, the room starts swaying. Or I do.
Ava grabs me by the arm and snatches the beer from my hand. “No more drinks for you, lady.”
“Nooo, let me be.”
“Yeah, let her be.” Remi appears like a devil on my left. “Drunk Cecy is fun Cecy!”
I narrow my eyes on him. “I’m not a prude.”
He grins. “Wanna be in my next orgy?”
“Hmph. I’m into something way better than that.” I pull on his ear. “Wanna know what?”
“Fuck yeah. I’m all for kinks.”
“Forget it.” My shoulders slump. “I’m too cowardly to try it again.”
“You can just un-coward yourself.” He waggles his brows. “I can help.”
I grab him by the face, watching him intently before I tut. “Not the right one.”
“Hey, what the actual fuck? I’m always the right one. It’s on my birth certificate right next to the aristocratic title.”
I wave him off and stumble, then hit a fallen pillow. Creighton catches me with a slight frown. “You good?”
I pat his arm, nodding, and pull his ear to whisper, “Perrrfect.”
He merely raises a brow, seeming to call my bullshit, but he doesn’t push it.
“I love you, Creigh.”
“Thanks?”
“Want me to help with Anni?”
“If you mean help to keep her away, sure.”
“Oh, please.” I snort and push him away. “Liar. Liar. Hey, Ava! Is there any vodka around here?”
“None of us drink that. What the fuck?” Ava snatches me from Creigh’s hold, drags me to my room, and dumps me on the bed like I’m a sack of potatoes. “Mind telling me what’s going on?”
I stand up, sway, and fall back down with a grunt. “I’m gonna go to the store and get some vodka.”
“Like fuck you are. You can’t even walk.” She sits beside me and checks my temperature. “Are you okay?”
“Why wouldn’t I be?”
“Because you don’t willingly drink or entertain Remi, and you’ve certainly never even tried vodka before.”
“I did.” I grin, my voice lowering. “It was sexy.”
“Huh?”
“Shh,” I murmur. “He could be watching. He’s everywhere and nowhere all at once.”
“Why are we whispering?” She matches my tone. “And who is he?”