Total pages in book: 78
Estimated words: 73930 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 370(@200wpm)___ 296(@250wpm)___ 246(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 73930 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 370(@200wpm)___ 296(@250wpm)___ 246(@300wpm)
She comes for a good, long time, and before she’s done, I follow her over the edge. I manage to keep her name off of my lips, but it echoes in my head as pleasure courses up my spine and through my limbs, filling me with the contradiction of need and satisfaction.
When I pull out of her, spent, I can’t resist lying beside her and curling her into my arms. She said my name; she knows it’s me, so there’s no point playing games.
I slip the blindfold off of her head and kiss her cheek, nuzzling my nose in her sweet-smelling hair and breathing her in.
This can’t be the last time with her. It can’t.
40
Autumn
The blindfold was pointless. I knew who each man was almost immediately. Their scent, their touch, the weight of their body — there were clear clues, and I wasn’t even trying to puzzle out their identities.
Maybe having my eyes covered helped me feel less self conscious, and you’d think not being able to look at their faces would have lessened the emotional impact of what we did, but that wasn’t the case. I feel connected to them, even though our physical connections are over.
Prior to tonight, nothing had seemed real with these men — it was all too hard to believe — but now it feels very real, and I want to burn each moment I’ve shared with them into my memory, because even though I have nothing to compare this to, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that this was a special experience, one I’m likely never to match.
And Duke holding me afterward. How can a man so big and rough-looking be so gentle and tender? I could have wept at the way he strummed the tips of his fingers over my arm, but I kept my tears inside.
I’m cold now that he’s gotten up, and I’m looking down at the floor to locate my clothes when Garrett comes to sit beside me. No one else is in the room at the moment; maybe they thought we might like time together.
“You probably knew I was first,” he says, putting his arm around me and taking my hand in his, but not looking at my face.
“I’m glad it was you,” I say.
“Sorry I didn’t last longer. I wanted to make you come. I just couldn’t —“
“Stop,” I say, cutting him off. “It felt amazing having you inside me, and I kind of like that you didn’t hold back. It made me feel wonderful knowing you were so excited by me.”
He grins as he rubs my arm. “That’s a gracious way to look at it, but you’re right about the excited part.”
I want to tell him that maybe we can try again, now that we both have actual experience, but that’s not part of the arrangement. I could fall for this man — for all of them — and part of me knows that I already have, but maybe everyone feels that way after sex.
He doesn’t say anything either; he just holds me and keeps me warm, and brushes his leg against mine. I’m going to have to figure out how I go back to working beside Garrett and not thinking about how it felt to be with him like this.
Trevor and Adrian come back in wearing sweatpants and no shirts, and join us on the bed. When Garrett lets me go, Trevor hugs me to him from the other side. “Scale of one to ten?” he asks. “One being I never want to think about this night again, and ten, I’m going to erect statues of your phalluses and worship them as my new gods.”
I burst out laughing, and am glad for the emotional release it provides. Without having to think about it, I know I’m a lot closer to the high end of his silly scale, but I say, “I’m not going to put a number on it!”
“Did you have a good time?” he asks in a more serious tone.
“I definitely, absolutely did.”
He hugs me tighter to him and gives me a brief kiss. “Good. I like the sound of that.”
Garrett turns me back in his direction and kisses me next. “I wanted to do this earlier, but figured you’d be able to tell it was me.”
I definitely would have. All of their kisses are unique, along with their taste, their touch. Ugh. I need to stop thinking about all of that.
Duke comes back into the room, still impressively naked, as Adrian touches my shoulder. “Can I ask why you said this is only going to be for tonight? Why just one night?”
I look back at him for a moment before saying, “That would be easier to answer if I still had the blindfold on.”
He tilts his head and blinks at me. “Why?” He quickly adds, “You don’t have to answer; I’m just curious.”