Total pages in book: 49
Estimated words: 46152 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 231(@200wpm)___ 185(@250wpm)___ 154(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 46152 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 231(@200wpm)___ 185(@250wpm)___ 154(@300wpm)
He grabs the condom from the drawer and rips the wrapper, and I move back so that he can sheathe himself.
He flips me over until he’s hovering over top of me. He leans down and kisses my lips, down my throat and across my chest.
He takes a deep breath, gritting his teeth. He’s always been a man of restraint. He demands control in every situation. I slide my hands up his chest and hook them around his neck.
I should take what he’s willing to give me but even now, knowing this could be my last day with him, I’m going to challenge him. “You don’t always have to be in control, you know. You can do what you want to with me, Beau. Whatever you want, I’ll like it.”
He clenches his eyes shut tight and shakes his head. His whole body seems to swell over me, and a vein in his neck is vibrating. I squeeze his shoulders, wanting him to unleash, but he doesn’t. He pries his eyes open and stares down at me. “Damn, you’re so beautiful.”
My eyes widen in surprise, and all I can do is murmur, “Thank you.”
With a grunt, he asks, “What do you need, Nat? Because you feel so fucking good, I’m not going to last.”
I grab his hand and move it to my hip. “This. I need your hands on me, Beau. That’s it.”
He doesn’t disappoint. I’m ready, and I’ve been thinking about this for hours before he woke up. Before long, we’re both completely engulfed in a mutual earth-shattering, body-trembling climax. He grunts as he collapses on top of me. We’re both breathing heavily, and he’s holding his weight off me, but I wrap my legs around his waist, trying to pull him to me. I’m completely satisfied, but I’m not ready to let go.
He kisses my cheek. “I need to get up and get ready for work.”
When I don’t answer him, he tries to lift me off, but I stop him by holding my legs around him tighter.
He rears back to look at me with a small smirk on his face. “Nat? I need to get ready.”
There are a thousand things I want to say to him, but I know it’s not the time or the place. I’ll have to do that later. I’m not going to ruin this moment of what will possibly be our last time together, so I unlatch my legs from around him.
He climbs off the bed and walks straight into the bathroom without a second glance my way. “I love you,” I mutter into the empty room.
Chapter 2
Natalie
I stare at my phone, my finger hovering over the send button.
I typed out the four words, and this is the hardest text I’ve ever prepared to send. The longer I stare at the words on the phone, the more uneasy I get.
I know I just need to do it. I need to hit send and then deal with the consequences, but I can’t seem to make myself do it. I delete the text and then lay the phone down on the table in front of me.
I push myself away from the table and stand up. I need to think about it some more. At least consider my options. It’s a big decision, and it shouldn’t be made lightly.
I pace the length of the dining room. There are eight chairs surrounding the huge custom-made table. The hutch at the other end of the room is filled with expensive china, and the chandelier is worth more than both my parents make in a year. But it’s all too much, and I’m feeling claustrophobic.
I grab my phone off the table and my sweater off the back of the chair and make my way to the sliding doors that lead to the back yard.
As soon as I walk out into the open air, I take a deep breath and sit down on the chaise lounge. I watch as the lights surrounding the pool dance off the reflection of the water. There’s a light on at the pool house, but other than that, darkness surrounds me.
I think back through the last two years and wonder how I got it so wrong. I grew up with two parents completely in love. We didn’t have much, but our family never lacked love. I always hoped I would find a love like the one my parents have, and I thought I’d found it with Beau. I’m not sure what I did wrong. My stomach knots up just thinking about what I’m about to do.
I lean my head back and look up at the starry sky and get lost in thought. Beau was everything from the first moment I saw him. He would come into the diner I worked at in Jasper, and I knew immediately he was someone special. He came in every day, flirted with me, and left me big tips. I was completely won over by him and looking for him to come in every night. I thought it was innocent enough until he asked me out, and only then did I begin to hope that there could be something between us.