Total pages in book: 92
Estimated words: 89170 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 446(@200wpm)___ 357(@250wpm)___ 297(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 89170 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 446(@200wpm)___ 357(@250wpm)___ 297(@300wpm)
That time I did laugh.
“I mean, why would a seventeen-year-old ask a fourteen-year-old out? Then, a group of four sophomore girls sat with me and my friends at lunch, and one put her hand on my thigh and tried to cop a feel!”
“Tried?”
He blushed. “I mean, I thought about letting her, but it didn’t feel right so I pushed her hand away. The girl on the other side of me was practically sitting on my lap. My friends teased me the rest of the day because all these girls were throwing themselves at me. Why me?”
I leaned forward. “Bud, you do look in the mirror, right?”
He rolled his eyes.
“You don’t look fourteen, for one thing. You’re good looking, you have a great sense of humor, and honestly, Joshua, you probably have a better physique than some of the senior guys and most of your friends. Well, you and Nathan both do.”
Looking confused he asked, “Physique?”
“You’re built, Joshua. You’ve been working on this ranch since you were old enough to clean out the horse stalls. You ride bulls, break horses—you’re a built little motherfucker. And Nathan, hell, he’s the spitting image of Uncle Dirk.”
Josh laughed. “Dad would be pissed if he heard you say that. Also, Uncle Dirk is always telling Nathan he’s a mini version of you. A flirt.”
I chuckled. “First off, I’m your cousin, not your father, so I can call you a built motherfucker. And secondly, he’s spot on. As a matter of fact, I think Nathan is a bigger flirt. Do the girls flirt with him?”
Joshua smiled. “Oh yeah. He hooked up with a junior.”
“Define hooked up?”
He gave me a confused look. “Really? You don’t know what it means?”
I sighed. “Yes, I know what it means. I’m just wondering if what I think it means is the same thing you think it means.”
Joshua shook his head as if trying to clear his thoughts. “They messed around in the gym after school. She gave him his first…you know. Then she had him do the same to her, but you know because she’s a girl it’s not a blow job, it’s more of—”
I held my hand up to stop him. “I get what you mean. All he did was oral?”
He laughed. “Yeah, just oral. No way is he having sex. He’s too afraid his dad will find out.”
I dropped back in my seat, relieved in a sense. But oral sex was a huge thing for these kids to be doing at fourteen and fifteen. Shit. I hadn’t gotten my first blow job until my senior year of high school.
“How old were you when you lost your virginity?” Josh asked.
A lump instantly formed in my throat. I cleared it a few times. “What?”
“How old were you when you had sex for the first time?”
I blinked a few times, trying to decide if I should be truthful or not. “I can tell you I wasn’t fourteen! Once I got to high school, I started to experiment with things, but I didn’t have sex until I was sixteen, and I regretted it.”
He jerked back in surprise. “Why?”
I shrugged. “I didn’t do it for the right reasons.”
“What does that mean?”
I exhaled and looked down at the numbers on my desk, then back up to Joshua. “As great as sex is, it should be done between two people who care about each other. Not just because you want to see how it is or because it feels good. And you shouldn’t ever be forced into it by anyone.”
“I get that. Did you regret it because you didn’t like the girl?”
I smiled. “I really liked this one girl, and I thought I wanted it to be with her. Things didn’t work out, though, and one night at a party, another girl was flirting with me. I was angry at the girl I really liked, and to pay her back for hurting me, I slept with the other girl. It didn’t mean anything for either of us. She was older than me by a year, she wanted sex, and she really wanted to be my first when I told her I was a virgin. So, when she started making the move on me, I let her. And I instantly regretted it because I knew I’d never get that moment back again.”
“And you wish you would have waited for someone who made it more special?”
I forced a small smile. “Yeah. I wish I would have waited for that. Sex is great, Joshua, I’m not going to lie. And what Nathan experienced is really great. Just always respect the girl, no matter what. If she decides you’re going too far, you stop.”
He nodded. “Dad’s already had this talk with me, Blayze.”
Laughing, I leaned forward again. “I love women. Always have. I admire them and have the utmost respect for them. I like to flirt and make them smile. Especially girls whom other guys don’t necessary flirt with. Every woman is beautiful, Joshua. Some more on the outside, some more on the inside. Just remember, it’s not always about how they look on the outside that matters.”