Total pages in book: 115
Estimated words: 111685 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 558(@200wpm)___ 447(@250wpm)___ 372(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 111685 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 558(@200wpm)___ 447(@250wpm)___ 372(@300wpm)
“Nothing, but I gotta go.”
What was I doing, though? Really? No. I could go back to the Quail. Stone wouldn’t remember it. He’d only hear I was working here, not there. He might not follow me, and then I really stopped myself.
It didn’t matter.
Colby would call Stone, but nothing. Nothing would happen. He might come. He might get in my face. He might issue threats about me eating, or something, but that’d be it because in the long run, he left. I spoke the words, but he was the one who utilized it. He put it into action.
So, with that decision, I stayed. I helped clean up the rest, and it was much later on when I was heading back to the Quail. Ben took the last round of dishes with Cammie, and there’d been no room in the van. It was fine. I told them I would walk. I could do with the clear air, to be honest.
And in all that time, nothing happened.
Not one text. Not one call. Not one Stone showing up in the box.
It really was done.
I was just turning the corner for the road leading to the Quail when my phone started buzzing again.
Cammie: Dude! Colby Doubard is at the Quail! Oh. Are you coming? Joe’s pissed. We told him you were walking, but he doesn’t believe us.
Cammie: OMG! Colby Doubard just asked for my number.
Cammie: OMG OMG OMG! Colby Doubard just asked me out!!! He left already, but he asked me out!!!
Cammie: Shit. Double shitter let’s all take a dump together shitter. Kyle will be so pissed.
I scrolled through the rest.
Joe: Cammie arrived ten minutes ago. Where are you?
Ten seconds later,
Joe: If you have an emergency, I need to know what it is.
Two seconds later,
Joe: Just let me know if you’re okay.
Joe: Reeves called me. You’re good.
Stone.
My heart jumped up in my throat.
Whatever Stone was doing, he wasn’t here and he was leaving me alone. That’s probably all he was doing, knowing I needed time and that I’d be fine and he was just covering for me.
Still.
Should I text him?
No. I wouldn’t. It was better to leave it alone. And with that decision made, I had five hours of shift I could still cover.
I texted Joe.
Me: I’m almost there, just walking. I’m fine.
Five minutes later, I was coming up the back alley for the Quail. I could hear all the people in the front, the line extending past where I was coming up, and I was just to the back door when a hand grabbed my wrist.
“I don’t think so.”
I was pushed against the building.
My heart stopped. I’d like to say dread filled me or panic started, but that would’ve been a lie. The first thought and emotion that flashed through me was finally!
Finally, he came for me.
Finally, he sought me out.
Finally, he remembered me.
Finally, he cared.
But here was how messed up I was because while I wanted him to be here for me, and I knew he was, I knew he was only here because Colby called him. He was here to ‘check up on me.’ I could just imagine the phone call from his teammate. Stone wasn’t here because he had feelings for me, or at least the feelings I wanted for the long term or the feelings I needed from him to even have a fighting chance.
He was here because he cared, just not enough.
Be happy with what he’s showing you. That thought flashed in my head, too, and I wanted to give into it. I wanted it so badly that my teeth were aching, tears were coming to my eyes, but I couldn’t. I just couldn’t. I would not survive.
He was in my face, and my God, he felt amazing. His eyes were angry. His jaw clenched. His hand had a cement hold on my arm before he shifted, placing both his hands on either side of my face. “Got a call earlier.”
“I’m sure you did.” I was resigned. He was going to go through it all, and I was already folding. If he kept at this, I’d be in his bed by tonight. And I’d hate myself for it.
Weak.
He shifted closer, lowering his head so he was peering at me eye level. “Got a call saying that the girl with the blue hair, that I hadn’t looked at her close enough.” He touched my hair. “Apparently, none of us had looked at her hard enough, but why would we? Different hair. You’ve lost weight. More pale.” He skimmed me up and down, a sneer tugging at his lip. “What the fuck have you been doing to yourself?”
Anger surged up and I smacked his hand away. I seethed, “You don’t get to stand there and judge me.”
His eyes flashed again. Hot. “Yeah?”
“Yeah.” I was in his face now because fuck him.