Total pages in book: 247
Estimated words: 248926 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 1245(@200wpm)___ 996(@250wpm)___ 830(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 248926 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 1245(@200wpm)___ 996(@250wpm)___ 830(@300wpm)
Sighing, I leaned my head against his chest. “Then, it is time to reshape and change. I had to by letting you take control of my life when it terrified me. I. . .like to depend on myself because at least I know I won’t hurt myself and things will get done, but I’ve had to give control.”
“You depended on Maxwell and X.”
“I took control when I could.”
“And now you give control to me?”
I looked up at him. “As much as I can.”
“All of it.”
“Kaz. . .”
He frowned. “And. . .I will give my control to you.”
“That means leaving my people alone.”
He raised his eyebrows. “Does it?”
“Yes. What the fuck is wrong with you? You are highly intelligent. Just stop killing my men.”
He groaned in annoyance.
“Let me go.”
“Mysh?”
“What?”
“Can I offer a simple example to rationalize my point?”
“Fine, but I won’t change my mind on this.”
“Good. And, I want a true answer from you.”
“Yeah. I’ll be honest.”
“I have men that swore their lives to protect me.”
“Alright.”
“And one day, these same men are around me, in a moment where I am unconscious, helpless, and on the ground. So, you ask my men to help you. Many stand strong and remain loyal. They nod. It is just another day on the job for them. They will not leave my side. They will wait until I wake. They will keep me safe, until I can walk again.”
I swallowed down fear.
“But then, there are six men who decide that they no longer want to protect me. They are scared. And the other men who stood strong are watching your reaction to these disloyal men.”
I sighed.
“What would you do, mysh?”
“That’s different.”
“It’s not.”
“Kaz, I have two fucking personalities. One likes to cut people into parts and play with them. That’s completely different than you being—”
“What would you do?”
“You know what I would do?”
“What?”
“Kill them.”
Kaz curved his lips into a wicked grin. “This is why I chose you to be my wife. Intelligent. Strong. Beautiful. Loyal. Loving.”
“That example is different.”
“It’s different because it is me and you would do more to protect me than yourself.”
I opened my mouth in shock.
Kaz continued, “Somewhere in your life, you learned that you weren’t important enough to fiercely protect, so you do it yourself and don’t expect much from others. In fact, I think too much love and protection makes you uncomfortable.”
“T-that’s not true—”
“You would rather give than take.”
“Because. . .”
“You would rather protect men and women who turned their backs on you, than to make sure good people are around you, keeping our child safe.”
I placed my head back against his chest.
“Sometimes I think you love your people more than you love yourself.”
I pursed my lips.
“So, I will properly love you enough for both of us.” He kissed the top of my forehead. “Also. . .”
I rolled my eyes. “Is there really an also, Kaz?”
“Also, you are focused on the wrong part of Harlem Crew.”
“What?”
“Focus on the ones in Harlem Crew that didn’t flinch when they saw what Lunita did. The ones that were given a choice to walk away, yet boldly remained to serve you.”
I didn’t know why, but that made me cry more and my heart ache.
Kaz continued, “Boris stood strong and said that he was eating cats before you, and that he would never leave your side.”
I sobbed.
“Kapotnya was nothing until you, Emily. You cleaned it up in a matter of weeks. There are murals of you on the buildings.”
I didn’t want to hear anymore. It made me uncomfortable. Uneasy. It made me want to hide and cover my face.
“The ones that stood strong. . .they saw the horror in your small frame and stayed for one simple reason.” Kaz ran his fingers through my hair. “They stayed because you are as close to a superhero as they will ever get in this cruel world.”
I gritted my teeth.
“But do you know that? Or should I buy you a cape?”
“Fine.”
“I love you, mysh.”
“I love you too, but. . .”
“But?”
“Do not kill any more of my people.”
He sighed. “Fine, but this is my compromise.”
“What?”
“Do not add any more people who need to learn that lesson. I believe your current people have gotten the message.”
“Okay. I won’t add anymore.”
“Good.” He pulled away and grinned at me. “Now. I want some pussy.”
Chapter 27
Feast
Kazimir
Space? Naughty, mouse. Never!
Clothes off. Cock out. Hungry and ready to fuck, I towered over Emily.
I will teach you about space this evening.
I had returned my mouse and her items to the proper suite.
Blue even carried a sleeping Paolo to his bedroom next to us. Emily had monitored the move as if she expected someone to try and grab him again. Once she confirmed that he was fine, she returned to our suite.
I must get rid of the boy soon.
But, that was a problem for tomorrow.
Time to teach a lesson.
Naked, Emily lay motionless on the mahogany dining table, covered in warm oil. Two pillows rested under her head. Her hands were bound above her head, stretched taut by red silk ribbon. Her legs were spread apart. Red ribbons tied each ankle to a table leg.