Total pages in book: 70
Estimated words: 64880 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 324(@200wpm)___ 260(@250wpm)___ 216(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 64880 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 324(@200wpm)___ 260(@250wpm)___ 216(@300wpm)
Silent tears streamed down Tulsi’s face as her power walk became a jog and then a run. By the time the beige truck pulled over in front of her on the shoulder of the highway, she was sprinting down the side of road toward town in her pale green bridesmaid dress and boots, heart racing even as her mind slowed and the world blurred around the edges.
Later, she wouldn’t remember the exact facial features of the woman who offered her a ride and a bag of tissues from her purse to wipe the smudged mascara from her face. She wouldn’t remember asking to be taken to Dad’s ranch or telling the woman who dropped her off thank you for the ride. She wouldn’t remember much until the moment she was standing outside the pen where her sister’s latest wild stallion had recently been delivered, staring at the furious animal who had never asked to be bought or sold or tamed, pondering the lack of justice in the universe and wondering how in the hell she was going to move forward from here.
If Clementine died, Tulsi would have no reason to keep living. Pike hated her. Mia hated her. And she hated herself. Sawyer had felt sorry for her at the hospital, but he would get around to hating her, too, sooner or later. Her dad obviously blamed Tulsi for the accident and her mother would never stand up to her father. Mom didn’t stand up; she fell apart. Tulsi didn’t blame her for it, and for a long time, she’d assumed she was just like her mother. Reece was the troublemaker with the loud mouth and the will of steel, like Dad; Tulsi was the peacemaker who kept her dissenting opinions to herself and fainted in the face of trouble, like Mom.
But she wasn’t like Mom; she realized that now. There was a wildfire of hurt and grief and rage burning inside of her. If there was an enemy she could fight for Clementine’s life, Tulsi would take to the ring with nothing but her bare hands and fight until her body was bruised and her opponent’s blood filled her mouth. She would destroy anyone who threatened her baby, but there was no one to fight, nothing to do with her clenched fists.
There was only the horse, snorting and stomping as it glared at her across the ring, the misery threatening to consume her heart, and the terrible fear that there was no waking up from this nightmare.
Before Tulsi consciously decided to move, her feet started toward the fence gate, but once she realized where she was going, she didn’t try to stop herself. The world was blurring around the edges again, and she didn’t want to bring it back into focus. The clear picture was too cruel.
This was better. The numbness, the softness, the distance from the pain. She would stay here, for now, in this limbo state where she wasn’t conscious of all the things she’d lost and the precious life that hung in the balance.
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
Pike
He was a father. Pike still couldn’t quite wrap his head around it.
He was that beautiful little girl’s father, but she might die before he had a chance to be a part of her life. She might die, and he would never get to hug her, eat wings with her again, or get her that puppy she wanted so badly. He wanted to give her everything—the world on a platter, the moon and more—but after the nurse placed a bandage at the crook of his arm and told him she’d come back with an update on Clem’s condition as soon as she could, there was nothing more he could do.
He sat beside Mia in the small specimen collection room, staring at the cups of orange juice and hard cookies the nurse had brought for them and wondering how he was going to keep from losing his mind while he waited to hear if Clem was going to make it.
“I can’t talk to her right now,” Mia said softly, breaking the silence. “I know I should. I know she must be falling apart somewhere, but I…I don’t know what to say.”
Pike sighed and reached for the glass of juice, downing it in two gulps, but the sickening sweetness felt wrong in his mouth. This wasn’t the time for anything sweet, not when life was dosing up so much bitterness and hurt.
“Why didn’t she tell me?” Mia continued in a dazed voice. “Why did she lie?”
Pike shook his head. “I don’t know. Guess she didn’t think I was good enough to be a father.”
“That’s bullshit.” Mia grabbed for a tissue from the box near the sink and mopped angrily at her face. “No matter how big an asshole you were to her—and I’m sure you were because I know your history with women—you deserved to know that Clem was yours. I deserved to know.” She sucked in a shaky breath. “I deserved to know that the little girl I’ve loved her whole life was my family and Clem deserved a father. You would have done right by her, I know you would have.”