Total pages in book: 44
Estimated words: 39740 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 199(@200wpm)___ 159(@250wpm)___ 132(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 39740 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 199(@200wpm)___ 159(@250wpm)___ 132(@300wpm)
She doesn’t know hate yet. I plan to make her life a living hell from now on. Not that I planned to use Lily; the idea never entered my mind, but there was nothing stopping me from fabricating stories about us running into each other.
As it turned out, I didn’t have to do that after all. Lily and I, as I said, worked on some school projects together, and the more time we spent together, the more we realized we had in common. She liked some of the same music, video games, and movies.
We found ourselves spending more and more time together, even doing our homework together in my dorm or her off-campus apartment. Before long we were attached at the hip, but still nothing happened between us.
I was still wary of the opposite sex, and she, well, I don’t know what her thoughts were since it was never brought up. I did notice, though, that whenever I was about to see her, I would feel this rush of excitement.
It got so my days seemed to revolve around when I was seeing her and when she was too busy, or I had something else to do and would have to wait until the next day to see her again.
We talked on the phone for almost an hour each night, and that was when we’d just parted after spending hours together to go back to our respective places. We fell into friendship with ease, and it wasn’t long before that friendship blossomed into something else for both of us.
“We’re going to have to talk about this.” Was that my voice sounding so gruff?
“I know.” She looked up into my eyes, and I fell into hers. We’d just been laughing together after she trounced me in our game, laughing and rolling around on the couch as I threatened to strangle her for cheating.
Just like that, the laughter died as we both realized at the same time that she was in my arms, and our lips were very close together. In fact, I’d been staring at her mouth when I made that statement.
I expected her to pull away, laugh awkwardly, and make an excuse to leave, but instead, she stayed where she was as if waiting for me to make the next move. “You know the mess I’m in with your sister right.” She just nodded her head. I still hadn’t gotten around to telling her about my plans for revenge.
Not because I didn’t trust her, but because we were having so much fun that I didn’t want the mention of them to spoil it. “You know I won’t be with her, right.”
“I don’t know, you never said….”
“I’m telling you now. I’d made up my mind about that long before I met you. But now that we’ve met, there’s no way.”
I should pull back and wait until everything was squared away with her sister and the rest of that bunch. But that was going to take years. “If we do this, you might get caught in the crossfire.”
“Gray, remember when I said I didn’t want revenge? I lied, I do, but not for myself, for my Mom. But I wouldn’t use you to do it.”
That was enough for me. I don’t know why we were both smiling as I lowered my head to hers, but I tasted the smile on her lips and got lost in her. She was sweet, soft, and cuddlable. How could I not make comparisons? Though there were none.
She made me feel things I had never experienced, but I knew what they were. Though I hadn’t shared myself with anyone before, I’m not a complete dunce when it comes to sex. I know what goes on between a man and a woman.
But I had never once felt these things before except for when I was self-pleasuring myself, but even that paled in comparison to this. As to her taste compared to her sister’s, there’s nothing to say. She has her beat there, too, as well.
The kiss went on for I don’t know how long before I called a halt. I knew she wasn’t ready because we had never discussed taking our relationship further, and there was a lot of stuff in the way that needed to be dealt with if we were going to become a couple.
I don’t know what got into me, but I felt very possessive of her, and in that moment I knew that I wouldn’t take no for an answer. And if she wasn’t sure, then I was ready and willing to do whatever it took to change her mind.
“So, we’re going to do this.”
“Are you asking me or telling me?”
“I’m telling you. I don’t know, I’ll be honest. This is the first real relationship for me, and I’m not sure how I’m supposed to feel, but right now, my feelings are very strong and just a little bit scary. I don’t want to let you out of my sight. It feels like my heart would stop beating if you weren’t here.”