Total pages in book: 50
Estimated words: 46500 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 233(@200wpm)___ 186(@250wpm)___ 155(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 46500 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 233(@200wpm)___ 186(@250wpm)___ 155(@300wpm)
“You good, my girl?” I softly asked her so she was the only one that could hear my voice.
She nodded and pressed a kiss to my cheek. “I’m okay.”
I gripped her chin and pulled her lips to mine, kissing her soft and slow before I released her and tapped her ass, allowing her to stand back up. “Come find me if you need me.”
She smiled, and that smile? It warmed my entire fucking soul.
Jessie
I disappeared out of the chapel, going into the kitchen to help make breakfast. Gloria was already in there, scrambling eggs. It had taken her a while to figure out how to use her legs again. Months of physical therapy had gotten her to this point, though. And she still had to go to keep strengthening her back and her legs again. Even now, she had a stool nearby in case she got too tired.
“You good?” she asked me.
I nodded. “Coming to help.”
She snorted at that, and I grinned. “Don’t burn anything.”
I just rolled my eyes and set to work frying bacon. But when it hit the pan, and the smell of frying bacon reached my nostrils, I gagged, rushing out of the kitchen to the nearest bathroom. I saw Gloria about to shout for someone, but I quickly waved her down, hoping she would get the memo.
No one could know yet.
As soon as I dropped down in front of the toilet, I spewed.
I squeezed my eyes shut, breathing in deeply afterward, trying not to panic at what this could mean.
I could not be pregnant.
After making sure I wasn’t going to throw up again, I flushed the toilet and used the mouthwash in the bathroom before rushing out to go find Elaina.
She was the one woman I knew that would keep her mouth shut in this clubhouse and also have what I needed.
I knocked lightly on the door. She called out a come in, and I stepped into the room, quickly shutting the door back behind me. She looked up in alarm. “Jessie?”
“I need a favor,” I said softly. I was fearing the absolute worst. My period was due tomorrow, but I knew there was a possibility.
And I was terrified of that single possibility. I couldn’t be a fucking mom.
“What is it, Jessie?”
I swallowed thickly. My throat still felt raw from throwing up, and I winced. “I need a pregnancy test,” I confessed.
Her eyes widened in shock before she quickly nodded and set Antonio in his pack ‘n’ play before walking over to the bathroom. I followed her, and she handed me a box. “Take this one,” she told me. “It’s the best brand I have.”
Nodding, I closed myself in her bathroom before drawing in a deep breath and forcing myself to pee on the stick, to find out if my worst nightmare was about to come true or not.
I watched as the stick slowly read my urine as I washed my trembling hands. It didn’t take long for that smiley face to pop up.
I bit back a scream as tears burst from my eyes. I sobbed, picking up the stick, shaking it, wishing it would read something fucking different.
It didn’t.
I screamed and dropped to the floor, pulling at my hair. I wasn’t ready.
This couldn’t be happening.
I couldn’t be a fucking mom.
I wouldn’t survive this.
Elaina pounded on the door. “Jessie?! Jessie!” she screeched.
I sobbed, pounding my fists on the floor, completely fucking breaking down.
“Ink!” my sister-in-law screeched. “Ink!”
16
Ink
I was already up and out of my chair along with the rest of the club when Elaina started screaming my name at the top of her lungs. I ran down the hall, meeting her halfway down it. Antonio was on her hip, but her face was pale. “Ink, Jessie—”
I rushed into her room, and at that moment, Jessie screamed from behind the bathroom door, the sound muffled. I slammed my shoulder against it, knocking it open. Jessie was on her knees on the floor, her entire body shaking, her nails biting into her palms, drawing blood.
She began pulling at her hair, sobs wracking her chest. “Jessie—Jessie, baby, fucking look at me,” I commanded as I dropped down in front of her, grabbing her face in my hands. I gently shook her when her eyes remained closed. “Open your fucking eyes and look at me, my girl.”
Her eyes snapped open upon my command. She was crying so hard she could barely breathe. If I didn’t get her calmed down soon, she was going to completely fucking lose it and black out.
Her eyes closed again. I shook her once more, a bit rougher this time. “Jessie, fucking look at me!” I shouted. Her eyes snapped open again. Agony resided in their depths, tearing my fucking soul apart. “Don’t you fucking shut those eyes again, you fucking hear me?” I shook her when she didn’t answer. “Do you fucking hear me, Jessie?”