Total pages in book: 102
Estimated words: 103413 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 517(@200wpm)___ 414(@250wpm)___ 345(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 103413 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 517(@200wpm)___ 414(@250wpm)___ 345(@300wpm)
“It’s not . . . I wasn’t trying to hurt myself.”
He smoothed down her nightgown. “Don’t hurt yourself in any way, for any reason.”
“I don’t think it’s that easy.”
He raised his gaze. “We’ll get you whatever help you need. We’ll support you all the way. But you have to help yourself. Do you want to help yourself?”
“Yes,” she said quietly. Her gaze was down. Not good enough.
“Look at me when you say that. Not your knees.”
“Jesus, Liam,” Nico muttered.
Liam gave him a sharp look and Nico sighed, nodding. He’d trust him.
Her gaze raised to his.
“Good girl. Do you want our help, Lottie? Do you want to help yourself?”
“Yes.”
“Yes, Liam,” he pressed.
“Yes, Liam.” Her eyes were wide. He took hold of her hands, being gentle with her knuckles. He placed his finger over her pulse. Fast.
She’d been through so much today. He wished that he could have put this conversation off until tomorrow at least. But going slow just wasn’t possible.
“You’re really stressed, aren’t you, baby?” he murmured.
“I’m all right.”
“Don’t, pretty girl,” Nico admonished. “Don’t brush your feelings and needs away because you think we can’t handle them or don’t want them. We do.”
She licked her lips nervously. “I don’t . . . I’m finding it hard to believe this is actually happening.”
“Believe it,” Liam said firmly.
“You wanted me? Back then? Both of you?”
“Yep,” Nico confirmed.
“It was a physical attraction. Or so I told myself. But that changed over time. We want you to be ours,” Liam told her.
“How can you?”
Liam scowled, not liking the way she said that.
“I think it should be how could we not want you,” Nico said firmly. This time, he was the one to grasp hold of her chin, turning her face up. “Why wouldn’t we want you, Lottie? You’re smart and kind. Gorgeous and sexy. Loyal and sweet.”
“And completely fucking messed up.”
“Lottie,” they both scolded at the same time.
“You are not messed up,” Nico told her firmly. “And talking about yourself like that isn’t permitted.”
She was gaping up at Nico in shock.
“As well as being bi, Nico is also a switch,” Liam told her helpfully. “Wasn’t sure until I saw him with you today whether he was going to want to dominate you as well. But I can see that he will. At least in some situations.”
“Way to hit her with a whole lot of information at once, sweetie-bum,” Nico said.
“Sweetie-bum?” she asked, staring at Nico.
“Liam loves cutesy nicknames,” Nico told her.
“Nico obviously loves being denied pleasure,” Liam muttered back.
“So, you’re saying that both of you are . . . ” She closed her eyes for a moment, rubbing at her head.
“Headache?” Nico asked.
“This is a lot,” she admitted. “You guys telling me that you wanted me that first night you met me. That you still want me now, for some reason.”
“Lottie,” Liam growled. “Enough.”
Her eyes shot open, her gaze going to his.
“So you’re a Dom, right?” she asked.
“Yeah. Nico is my sub.”
“I’m not a sub,” she stated.
“How do you know?” Liam asked.
She licked her lips. “I couldn’t go to a club or do a scene or have someone h-hurt me.”
“Nobody is going to hurt you,” Liam told her firmly.
“Everything we do is consensual, Lottie,” Nico reassured her. “Nothing would happen that you didn’t agree to. And being a sub isn’t all about pain or going to clubs. There doesn’t have to be any of that. In fact, we don’t go to clubs anymore. We don’t necessarily like to follow all the rules.”
“I don’t think I’d want you at a club anyway,” Liam said. “Too many eyes on what belongs to me. It’s bad enough when everyone starts sniffing around Nico, I know he could handle himself. But we’d spend all night just keeping people away from you.”
“I don’t belong to you,” she said quietly. “Either of you. All of this . . . it’s too much.”
“You don’t want us?” Liam asked. His gaze shot to Nico’s, who looked worried.
“Don’t want you? How could anyone not want the two of you? I know it’s terrible to admit because I was with Michael at the time, but I felt that attraction too. The pull. I thought it was just because you were both so gorgeous. I mean, I couldn’t have you. You were with each other. You were gay. I figured it was a safe fantasy.”
“It’s not wrong when your boyfriend was all over another woman,” Nico told her. “Besides, I was flirting my ass off with you.”
“I just thought that maybe you were like that with everyone.”
“If he were, he’d never sit again,” Liam said dryly.
Her eyes widened. “Do you mean that you’d . . . ”
“Redden his ass, yep.”
“And you agree with that?” she asked Nico.
“Oh, I’d make him work for it,” Nico drawled. “I don’t like to make things too easy for the lord and master.”