Total pages in book: 48
Estimated words: 45943 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 230(@200wpm)___ 184(@250wpm)___ 153(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 45943 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 230(@200wpm)___ 184(@250wpm)___ 153(@300wpm)
Whatever the heck we are right now.
“What I’m about to tell you is going to seem insane, Jade, but it’s the truth.”
“Okay,” I murmur, waiting.
He lowers his lips to my ear, so that each word makes hot breath purr over my skin, the same way his breath tickled over my sex and my skin when his head was buried between my thighs.
“When I saw you the other night, I knew you were mine,” he growls. “I know how that sounds, but when I saw you sitting there in that beanie and those sweatpants and … Jesus, I started having these feelings that would’ve made no sense to me just a week ago.
“I knew that I had to have you, sexually, emotionally, everything. And I knew something else, Jade.”
“What?” I whisper, my heart pounding like it’s trying to keep time with a frenetically paced song.
The world seems to be spinning faster.
“I knew I had to put a child inside of you,” he snarls. “I never dreamed of having more children, but when I saw those childbearing hips of yours when I saw those perfect-for-milking tits, I just knew it. Don’t ask me to explain how I knew, because I didn’t, I don’t. But it’s as certain to me as the color of the sky. You belong to me, Jade. Your body, your soul, your heart, your womb … Everything you are, it’s mine.”
I turn in his embrace, wondering if this is it, the moment I jolt awake and find that I’ve fallen asleep at my laptop and this is all part of some crazy half-dream half-story.
I look up into his steely blue eyes, my lips twitching into a smile I can’t repress, despite the complications, despite the potential cataclysm that this could cause.
“Jamie, I feel the same,” I gasp. “I’ve always had a crush on you and…”
“You’ve always had a crush on me?” he smirks. “I had no idea.”
“Ever since I met Yasmin, I’ve had a crush on you,” I tell him. “I just thought it was a silly little girl thing, but now it’s all coming true and I’m getting the same thoughts, too. I’ve got this feeling deep inside of me, telling me that I need to have your baby. It’s so crazy. It makes no sense.”
“It does to me,” he growls passionately.
I’m not even sure who leans in first, only that one second we’re gazing into each other’s eyes and the next his lips are consuming me all over again.
I shift and grind against him, his heart pounding so hard I can feel it through the muscled stoniness of his chest.
His body is burning like a fire just for me, protecting me against the winter cold. I grip onto the taut muscles of his back as our tongues flare together like whips that just want to crack, again and again, their sharp pleasure traveling through me at hyper speed.
And yet, unfairly, anxiety starts to niggle at the edges of the moment.
How are you going to get pregnant by Jamie when you don’t even know what to do? an acerbic voice taunts, and then another voice roars out in my mind, as though I’ve got an angel and devil on my shoulder.
Only these are both devils.
The other voice tells me that if Yasmin were here right now, she’d scratch her fingernails down my face, she’d scream and she’d hate me.
Jamie must sense something.
He stops the kiss and leans back to regard me.
“Something’s wrong,” he says.
I nod shortly. “It’s just … What if she finds out?”
I can’t bear to mention the other thing, not yet.
The idea of blurting that I’m scared I’m not going to be able to physically take his massive manhood and that even if I can I’m terrified I won’t be able to satisfy him, makes me want to run away from this conversation.
“Yasmin? Well, she is going to find out,” Jamie says. “She has to. We have to tell her.”
I recoil from him without even meaning to, leaping away as though I’ve just been slapped.
“What, just like that?” I say, uncertainty quivering in my voice.
“Well, yes,” Jamie says as if this should’ve been obvious to me from the start. “Did you think we were going to have children in secret somehow? We can’t keep her in the dark about this. Fuck, Jade, you belong to me. You’re mine. Even if we tried to keep it from her, she’d find out eventually just from the way I look at you.”
I see the evidence of that clearly now in the glinting fieriness of his eyes, as though he’s always fighting off the urge to pounce on me like the animal he is.
I bite my lip, shifting from foot to foot, glad for the iciness of the weather now so that my body doesn’t scorch up with the terror lacing my every heartbeat.