Total pages in book: 88
Estimated words: 83467 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 417(@200wpm)___ 334(@250wpm)___ 278(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 83467 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 417(@200wpm)___ 334(@250wpm)___ 278(@300wpm)
“Wait, Fawn. That was nothing. I didn’t touch her. She—”
“Just sucked you off while you called her a hot little cumslut. Yes, I know. I heard it clearly. You were rather loud while you got off in her mouth.”
He had the decency to wince.
I reached up and patted his cheek. “It’s okay. I’m not destroyed. This wasn’t love. It was fun, and it’s over.”
He inhaled sharply and shook his head. “Fawn, I’m sorry. Fuck, please don’t leave me. I shouldn’t have let her. I messed up. Just give me one more chance. I swear to God it won’t happen again.”
I laughed and took his hand off my arm. “You’re right; it won’t. At least not with me. I don’t give second chances. If I’m not enough for a man, I don’t stay.”
“FUCK!” Micah ran his hand through his blond hair. “You are enough. You are more than enough. Jesus, Fawn, it was one mistake. I don’t feel shit for Dylan. I’m … I think I’m falling in love with you.”
I wanted to cackle with laughter, but I didn’t. This boy was entirely too young for me. He had no clue what he was saying. I was only thirty-six, but when you’d had a daughter at the age of seventeen and you were alone in the world, you grew up fast. Dating a twenty-six-year-old was dumb. I should have known better.
“Micah, you are not falling in love with me. I can promise you that. We had fun. We laughed a lot. Sex was great. It will be a fond memory for both of us. Let’s end this as friends.”
He let out a short, hard laugh. “That’s really how you feel, isn’t it?” He shook his head, as if he was in disbelief. “You don’t know your power, Fawn Parker. I’ve never met a woman like you. You’re fuckin’ perfect. Not only are you the sexiest female I’ve ever seen, but you’re also not afraid of new things, you love life, and your laugh is the most addictive sound I’ve ever heard. There is no jealousy or clinginess, and I thought I’d hit the jackpot, but dammit. The one time I want a female to be clingy to me, she isn’t. If you walk out of that door, I’m pretty damn sure you’re taking the only chance of me loving a woman with you.”
I doubted Micah could love only one woman. Maybe one day, when he had lived more of this wild life, slept with enough Dylans, and felt like he’d gotten it out of his system, he would meet a female who would be enough for him. He’d love her. I hoped so. He had a good heart. He was just a whore. A sweet, sexy manslut.
“One day, she’ll come along. I’m not her,” I assured him.
“You’re leaving before we had a chance at love,” he argued.
“There was never going to be love. That was never going to happen. You have a lot more living to do, and I’m not the kind of woman who falls in love. I think I’m broken when it comes to that. When we started this, I told you this was just a good time. I didn’t want anything more from you.”
Micah sighed in defeat as he stared at me. “Yeah, well, that wasn’t the first time I’d heard that from a female.”
“But I’m not like the others.” I winked at him, then turned to get my duffel bag.
I needed to go find Gypsi. It was time to go home to our camper. Then decide on where we were headed next. I was thinking we could go up the East Coast.
“There is nothing I can say to make you stay, is there?” he asked me.
I shook my head. “No.”
“Fuck, I’m gonna miss you.”
I smiled, but I didn’t reply. I couldn’t say the same to him. Not honestly. Sure, I’d think about him and remember the good times, but my heart wasn’t even a little cracked. I wasn’t attached. I never got attached.
I hadn’t been lying when I said I was broken. The horror in my past hadn’t destroyed me. How could it when I’d been given Gypsi in the end? She was where I found my happiness. The darkness had severed whatever emotion it was that made a woman love a man. My heart was guarded from everyone but my daughter. There was an impenetrable wall that kept me safe. No man would ever be able to get through. And that was a good thing.