Total pages in book: 133
Estimated words: 130102 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 651(@200wpm)___ 520(@250wpm)___ 434(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 130102 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 651(@200wpm)___ 520(@250wpm)___ 434(@300wpm)
“It was everythin’.”
It might have been everything to him, but he didn’t tell her in person and those two words, as much as they meant to her, didn’t make up for the worry and fear of finding out he loved her and then him simply disappearing like he didn’t.
She needed to explain. “I never got to say goodbye to Brendan. You have to understand that was the hardest part for me. It still is. If I had one more minute with him... Even for the chance to say goodbye... You left without a goodbye after texting me you loved me.”
He sucked in a breath. “Chelle...”
“You never got to say goodbye to your mother, either, did you?”
With flared nostrils, he stared over her head instead of answering. His reaction was her answer.
“So, you know how that feels. You were only four when you were ripped from her. Only a year older than Josie was when she lost her father. At least my girls had me. My brothers’ family. You had no one. I’m still amazed you survived.”
“Almost didn’t.”
True. He almost didn’t.
Her fingers circled his left wrist over the wide leather band and she lifted it to her lips. “Sometimes you just need to be free of the pain. I’m not sorry you survived, but I am sorry to do so, you had to continue to suffer. I want to say living was worth it, but only you can determine that.”
He pulled his wrist from her fingers and cupped her face. She tilted her head and rubbed her cheek against his warm palm.
“Took a long time for it to be worth it.”
“When you were freed at seventeen?”
He shook his head. “At twenty-eight.”
“What happened when you were twenty-eight?”
“Found my family.”
“Your club.”
“And now you. Sorry I couldn’t explain, but it’s best you don’t know.”
She released a long sigh. “That worries me.”
“Best you don’t know,” he repeated.
“I’m always going to wonder.”
“Chelle.” Her name came out as warning.
He didn’t want her to push, so she wouldn’t. She pressed her palm to his chest instead. “Okay. So, give me a good reason why I should forgive you for leaving the way you did?”
“Don’t gotta forgive me, beautiful. But know it’s done and over. At least what I set out to do. Needed to finish a previous chapter before startin’ a new one.”
She pinned her eyebrows together. “A new one... With me?”
“With you, the girls...” An uneasy look crossed his face. “Problem is, wasn’t expectin’ to discover some shit that I did about my father. Might have to deal with that later.”
She frowned. “But not now.”
He shook his head. “Not now. Got somethin’ else to deal with first. Someone else.”
“What do you mean?”
“Before I closed that last chapter, stumbled upon a new endin’.”
What was he talking about?
Before she could ask, he continued, “Or maybe it’s a new beginnin’. Don’t know, never read a book yet.”
“You will.”
“Maybe. Or can just have you read them to me.”
“Or you can listen to audiobooks.” She made it sound like she was teasing him, but, in truth, him listening to audiobooks and reading along with the narrator would be good for him.
“Would rather listen to you.”
“I’d rather hear your explanation on this new ending. Or new beginning.”
“Got a lot to talk about, maybe we should go inside so you can sit down.”
What? “Oh no. Now you need to explain this second. I’m not moving until you do.”
“Ain’t you cold?”
“Shade!”
“At least sit on my sled—”
“Shade!” She wasn’t moving an inch until he was done talking.
In the end, Chelle knew he skipped over a lot of details. Like the main reason he was in that house in Georgia and what else happened while he was there besides finding a twelve-year-old boy in a cage. Goosebumps broke out along her skin and it wasn’t from the chill in the late October air. It was from the little he did tell her and everything he omitted.
But from what he did say, she knew he went to revisit his past. To seal whatever doors he needed permanently shut. He couldn’t move forward until he did that.
Not only for himself but for her. For their future together.
Even so, if she’d known what he had planned, her realization of why he left without a word was correct. She would’ve fought like crazy for him not to go. One reason being she was sure for him it was like stepping back into the depths of hell.
A hell she wanted to protect him from, even though that might never be possible.
But in the heavy darkness he revisited, he’d become the light.
For a boy who had been stolen. Just like Julian.
“He’s stayin’ with me... With the club... With us.”
“For good?”
“If I can’t find his family.”
“He has family, Shade.”
He frowned. “What?”
“He’s got us.”
Shade squeezed his eyes shut and whispered, “Fuck, Chelle.”
“Isn’t that why you brought him home?”