Total pages in book: 52
Estimated words: 49949 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 250(@200wpm)___ 200(@250wpm)___ 166(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 49949 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 250(@200wpm)___ 200(@250wpm)___ 166(@300wpm)
“NO! Calm down,” I laugh. “Kane didn’t force me to do anything. I seduced him.”
“Good.” She lets out a sigh, and I raise an eyebrow at her. “You know what I mean…”
There’s a moment of silence between us before Chastity starts rambling again.
“At least your real first time wasn’t with Billy. He thinks he’s so cool and bad ass… He’s nothing but a joke. I didn’t want to tell you this, but… after you broke up with him, Billy came onto me.”
“What?!” I ask. “What an asshole!”
“Yeah, that’s exactly what I told him! Now I know why you’re done with high school boys,” Chastity smiles. “I’m happy you got your dream man, even if your father is going to have a heart attack when he finds out.”
“Well… I don’t think it’s ever going to come to that. I’m pretty sure Kane is just sleeping with me because I’m blackmailing him.”
“You’re what?!” Chastity flips out.
“Shit, I just got you to calm down,” I groan.
“I’m sorry,” she laughs. “This is a lot to take in. You’re blackmailing Kane? To have sex with you?”
“I told Kane I’d tell my father about his journal entries about me if he didn’t give in to me,” I say, not so proud of myself all of a sudden. “Oh God, I’m pathetic!”
I press my head down onto the counter, realizing how horrible it all sounds when I say it out loud.
“You’re not pathetic, Rey. You’re just really good at getting your way,” Chastity snickers.
I look up at her and groan.
“I love Kane, Chas. I love him so much it hurts. When I’m with him, he makes me feel incredible—like I’m smart and sexy and like he really cares about me.”
“Of course Kane cares about you. He’s your godfather,” she looks at me confused.
“I don’t mean like that. I mean… What if he doesn’t even really want to have sex with me? What if it was better left as a fantasy for him? Maybe the only reason he’s doing it is because I’m blackmailing him.”
I look at Chastity with a pouty face, but I can tell this problem is over her head.
“I don’t know, Renee. All I know is, someone’s going to get hurt in this situation. Whether it be you or Kane or your dad if he finds out.”
I nod, knowing Chastity is right and that I probably should end whatever is going on between Kane and me before that happens. Just then, the front door opens, and my father comes into the kitchen a moment later.
“Hey, girls,” he says, giving Chastity’s back a light rub before walking toward the refrigerator.
Chastity immediately straightens her posture and plays with her hair as her face reddens. I have to look away from her so that she doesn’t see my knowing smirk. I’ve never let on that I know she has a crush on my father because I know she’d be embarrassed and would worry I’d tell him, and that would make things more awkward for her.
I wonder if my experience with Kane has put ideas in her head, though. The idea of Chastity as my stepmother is totally weird, but if Dad liked her in return, I would be happy for them. He needs someone who will be good to him.
“I think I’m going to order pizza tonight. Do you want to stay for dinner, Chastity?” Dad turns around and asks.
“Sure, if it’s not too much trouble,” Chastity smiles.
“You’re always welcome here,” Dad tells her.
As Chastity and Dad talk, I zone out and look at my phone. Kane and I never text or talk on the phone anymore. Before this whole thing started, we used to text occasionally. He would check in with me and see how I was, but now, that’s all stopped. Maybe I’m pushing away what we used to have by blackmailing him for sex. Maybe we should stop.
Shit, I don’t think I can stop. The thought of never being with Kane again makes my entire body ache.
15
Kane
When Colt asked if I could take Renee to see a college in Philadelphia, I couldn’t help but be happy at the idea of another weekend alone with her. Part of me feels like I’m betraying Colt’s trust by sleeping with Renee, but the other part of me wants her too damn much.
If I’m completely honest with myself, it’s not just the sex that I’m looking forward to this weekend. Waking up to a woman is something I haven’t experienced in a long time, and seeing Renee lying next to me last weekend was perfection. Talking with her and laughing together… it was all special because she’s not just some random girl I’ve picked up.
It’s Renee Linwood… someone I’ve always cared deeply for and someone I will always care for in the future, no matter what happens.
When Monday rolled around after last weekend, I had to go back to my real life. The life where I’m a middle-aged man who runs my own business and never makes time for romance… to the life where I would never deflower my best friend’s little girl. But I can’t possibly regret that, not when it seems Renee wanted it as badly as I did.