Total pages in book: 117
Estimated words: 113934 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 570(@200wpm)___ 456(@250wpm)___ 380(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 113934 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 570(@200wpm)___ 456(@250wpm)___ 380(@300wpm)
“I guess I could see that. But that still doesn’t explain why you didn’t share those fears with her. Y’all could have taken a break.”
“She would have hated me for that.”
“And the alternative is working out better?”
Mitch groaned. “I know, I know. I never wanted to lose her. I just wanted something more.”
“You wanted your cake and to eat it, too.”
Mitch cursed under his breath. He knew I was right.
“When I first met Lexi, she practically threw herself at me. I wasn’t used to girls giving me so much attention. Back home, everyone had known I was with Michelle. And the girls who had tried to worm their way in, I hadn’t wanted anything to do with.”
“But this Lexi girl caught your eye?”
“I guess you could say that. She would say things to me that…fuck, any guy would have reacted to it.”
I shuddered to think of what the little slut had said to Mitch.
There was a loud bang, and I imagined Mitch hitting something in his truck.
“Fucking hell. She would have me so worked up that, by the time class was over, all I wanted to do was…well…whatever. She knew what buttons to push.”
“Gross. Too much information, Mitch.”
“When Michelle accused me of thinking of Lexi while I was with her, it wasn’t true. I never pictured myself with anyone else when I was with Michelle. But it was Lexi who had gotten me so horny. She’d whisper things she wanted me to do to her, and I’d go to Michelle’s and do those things to her instead.”
I gagged and covered my mouth. “How do you think that’s not thinking of another woman, Mitch? My God! I think I just puked in my mouth.”
“It was Michelle I was with. It’s not like I pretended it was Lexi.”
“Listen to what you just told me, Mitch! That girl would get you worked up, tell you what she wanted you to do to her. That wasn’t what Michelle wanted. You lived out another woman’s fantasy with your girlfriend. Deep down inside, Mitch, you were thinking of Lexi and what she wanted from you.”
Silence filled the air between us.
I heard a faint sniffle before Mitch started talking again, “The night I was with Lexi, I had been drinking. I wasn’t that drunk though. I knew what I was about to do was wrong. But I needed to know what being with someone else would be like. That moment came, and it was like, if I didn’t take it, I might not have it again. Skip pulled me to the side and told me, if I did it, I couldn’t turn back. That, if I wanted this girl, I needed to break things off with Michelle.”
I sucked in a gasp. “He did? Why didn’t you listen?”
“I’m an idiot, and the second Lexi touched me, I lost control. I was a different person that night. All I could think about was all those times she’d flirted with me and the things she’d said. I didn’t think about anyone else but myself. I took what she gave me, and I swear to God, the second it was over, I came to my senses. I actually sat on the edge of the bed and cried. I’ll never be able to take it back, Sky.”
My fingers lightly wiped my tears away. “No, you won’t.”
“Will Michelle forgive me?”
I wanted more than anything to give my brother hope, but I knew I couldn’t. “She’s leaving UT next semester.”
“What? Where is she going?”
“Here, Baylor. She mentioned maybe going to Harvard. She wasn’t sure, but she said she couldn’t stay there.”
It was then I heard the sobs coming from the other end of the line.
“Oh God, what have I done? What have I done? She’ll never forgive me, will she, Sky? She’ll never forgive me.”
As much as I hated what Mitch had done to Michelle and even though I didn’t think his excuse was worth a shit, he was still my brother, and I hurt for him. I heard the sadness and guilt in his voice. The idea that he’d lost the one person he hadn’t realized was so special to him had to eat at him every morning he woke up and every night he went to sleep.
I slowly took in a deep breath. “I don’t know, Mitch. I don’t know if she’ll ever forgive you.”
Mitch cried harder. He whispered Michelle’s name over and over, and I couldn’t help the flow of my own tears.
CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
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Wyatt
“WYATT! SKYLAR! WE’RE ready,” Alice called out.
I took Skylar’s hand in mine, and we walked back into the house from the front porch. The smell of turkey hit my nose, and I couldn’t help but moan in delight.
“That smells heavenly, Mom.”
Skylar dropped my hand and rushed to my mother’s side. “Alice, are you sure you don’t need any help?”