Total pages in book: 121
Estimated words: 117920 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 590(@200wpm)___ 472(@250wpm)___ 393(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 117920 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 590(@200wpm)___ 472(@250wpm)___ 393(@300wpm)
At the other end of the room is a separate alcove with two bunk beds where the girls are currently fighting against sleep. Aurora has promised to tell them a story about Snarf Snarf and though I can’t see them from where I am, I can hear her every word.
“And then, sneaky little Snarf Snarf decided to hide behind the curtain until everyone in the house was asleep.” Aurora talks with such animation, her accent really coming alive. It’s become endearing to me now, like music. “It was only then that he dared show himself. Luckily, his little pink body was completely done up in camouflage gear, so no one would see him anyway. Armed with only an axe, he went to steal the King’s magical crown.”
What the hell kind of a story is this?
“Only the magical crown was no longer in the case. Do we know what happened to it?” She pauses, and there’s silence. The girls must have fallen asleep.
I hear her kiss them and then whisper, “Goodnight, little princesses.”
And then I’m hit, no, sideswiped by a feeling I’ve never had before, that I can’t even begin to process. All I know is that my throat is growing choked and my heart is twisting and turning into a million pieces, something warm and hot and beautiful spilling out inside me.
I can’t breathe. I’m hostage to it, to this moment.
Fucking shit, this is terrifying.
Then I hear Aurora walking down the short hall that connects this room to that one and she pauses by the wall, giving me a quick smile as she brushes her hair behind her ear.
“I guess you heard all that,” she says softly, still smiling, still … glowing. How have I never noticed how she glows like that before?
You’ve noticed. You’ve always noticed.
I clear my throat, trying to compose myself. She’s right that when you wear a crown, you wear a mask. I can’t let mine slip one inch.
“So how does the story end?” I manage to say, my words coming out thick.
She shrugs. “I don’t know. It ends differently every time.”
“You make it up as you go?”
“Yup,” she says, then looks around the room. “Boy, am I sure glad I got the Wizard room. I have magic wands and spell books and you have, uh” —she gestures to above the bed— “a fake stained glass window of a creepy Lego princess. And so much pink.”
“I’ll have you know that I’m not afraid of pink,” I tell her.
She snorts. “Right. That would explain why I’ve only seen you in dark colors.”
“I could do a pink tie one day,” I say, getting defensive.
“You don’t even wear ties,” she says. “I doubt you know how to put one on.”
She’s teasing me, hands behind her back, leaning against the wall while a piece of hair falls in her face again. She’s almost coquettish. Or maybe she’s always this way and that’s why it gets under my skin so badly.
Because I don’t need to feel anything right now. I shouldn’t be feeling anything at this moment but wanting to be alone.
“Well, I better go back to my room,” she says, as if picking up on my thoughts. “Rest up for another big day. As much as I love rides, if the girls make me go on that Pirate Ship again, I’m going to be sick.”
“You don’t have any scotch, do you? Or aquavit?” I suddenly blurt out.
What am I doing?
She raises her brows. “Really?”
I shrug half-heartedly. “You seem like you would.”
“I’m more of a beer or wine gal,” she says. “What about Stella?”
“She’s sleeping. She’s always gone to bed early.”
“I can get it from the front desk,” she says helpfully.
“This hotel is barely even open. They’re not going to have anything.”
She slowly shakes her head at me, like I’m not getting something. “You, sir, are the bloody King of this entire country. You just closed down Legoland. I’m pretty sure that if you want the booze, you’re going to get the booze. Now sit tight, Your Majesty, and I’ll be right back.”
She turns and walks down the hall to the door, and I call out to her. “You know I love it when you call me that.” I can tell she’s hesitating, mulling over what I said. Maybe I caught her off-guard. Maybe she’s trying to think of some smart comeback.
The door clicks shut.
Curiously, I get up and go check on the girls in their room. They’re both sleeping soundly, cuddled up with plush Lego dragons and horses. The same feeling that hit me earlier comes back, slowly this time, curling around me like smoke.
Complicated as ever.
I’ve taken so much from my daughters. It was my actions that night that killed my wife. It was because of me that they suffer from their grief, that they’ll grow up like this, without a mother.