Total pages in book: 66
Estimated words: 61190 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 306(@200wpm)___ 245(@250wpm)___ 204(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 61190 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 306(@200wpm)___ 245(@250wpm)___ 204(@300wpm)
David didn’t say anything for a few seconds, thinking hard about my words as I sat there terrified that he was going to be upset.
I couldn’t be here right now. I was too afraid to hear what he had to say.
“I’ll be back later. I need a walk,” I said as I hurried out of bed to pull my clothes on and grab my phone.
“Brianna, wait,” David said.
I didn’t wait. I hurried out of the house and walked through our neighborhood, tapping around on my phone until I tapped the call button on Delilah’s contact.
“Hello?” she answered.
“Delilah, I don’t know what to do. I told David I had deep feelings for the other guys,” I blurted out as my eyes started to burn from fear. What if I ruined things by saying that?
“Okay, breathe,” Delilah told me. “What did you say?”
“I said I missed the guys and that I liked them more than just a crush,” I said. “When he asked if I love them, I said I think so.”
“Do you?” Delilah asked.
I stopped walking as the magnitude of it all dropped down on me.
“I do. How is that possible? How can I love multiple people?” I asked her. “I loved David first!”
“Love isn’t some finite resource. You can love so many people in your life,” Delilah told me. “Hey, look at me. I love more than one man, and we’re all happy because we communicate and know what to expect from each other. It’s all about communication, so you made the right move telling him.”
Ryder was one of those men. He was happier than ever with her, but would David feel the same way as Ryder now that I admitted my feelings for the other guys?
“I ran out of there before he could really say anything. He seemed shocked,” I said as I swallowed hard.
“This could change a lot of things for you guys, whether he’s fine with it or not,” Delilah pointed out. “But you shared a lot of intimacy with these guys. A lot of trust. Of course, feelings developed, but you need to talk to David about those feelings more. And maybe you need to talk to the others too depending on what you guys decide.”
I forced myself to breathe in deeply. She was right. It all came down to communication if I wanted anything to work, and I did. I wanted this to work so badly, but even this fantasy seemed a little too demanding for reality and its routinely cold nature.
Could I really have everything I wanted without losing everything?
Chapter 25
Amir
Silence rang through my house, creating an uneasy, abnormal atmosphere in a place that was often full of music, people talking, or some sort of action movie playing. There was always life in my house, but it was dead silent today.
And every day since I got back from Vlasica.
I tore my eyes away from my tall living room window, forcing myself not to stare out at my busy neighborhood for another thirty minutes. I just didn’t feel like doing anything. I didn’t want to see anyone or go out anywhere.
Well, that wasn’t true. I did want to see someone, and I wanted to go where she was at.
I wanted Brianna.
I shook my head at myself as I ran my hand over the top of it. I managed to avoid catching feelings for a woman for years now, but Brianna waltzed into my life with her glowing smile and sexy wits and ripped the rug out from right under my feet.
Damn it. Just… damn it.
I thought I was safe from heartbreak. But I had been suffering for days now, thinking about her and how I had fallen for someone so unattainable. She was married to my captain, of all people!
I wouldn’t dare cross a man I respected and cared about so much. He was like my brother like all the rest of the guys in my unit, including my actual flesh and blood brothers. But I missed Brianna a lot.
Hell, I tried to even entertain the idea of hooking up with some of my past flings to try to get her off my mind, but I just couldn’t do it. All I wanted was Brianna, and I couldn’t have her.
What a sick joke.
A knock on my door drew me out of my thoughts, prompting me to sigh and walk to my small foyer. It was probably a buddy I met while partying or a past fling who heard I was back in town. I opened the door and was met by the sad face of my brother.
“What’s up?” I sighed as I let Aziel in. “Where’s Andre?”
“At home. He didn’t feel like coming out,” Aziel replied as he walked over to my couch to slouch down on it. He sighed and leaned his head back.
It seemed like they were just as down as I was, but was it for the same reason or something else entirely different? I moved to stand in front of him, crossing my arms over my chest as I lost to my curiosity.