Total pages in book: 66
Estimated words: 61190 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 306(@200wpm)___ 245(@250wpm)___ 204(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 61190 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 306(@200wpm)___ 245(@250wpm)___ 204(@300wpm)
As much as I wanted to talk to David to ease my mind, he was gone with the guys on a run this morning. Plus, another perspective might do me some good because he would just tell me what he told me last night.
I grabbed my phone off the nightstand and tapped on Delilah’s contact, not even knowing what time it was for her. I just hoped that she picked up because I really needed to talk to someone about what was going on that wasn’t another person involved in it.
“Hello?” Delilah asked, luckily sounding awake.
“Delilah, I need to talk to you,” I told her, the words blurting out of me as my eyes burned.
“What’s wrong?” Delilah now sounded urgent.
“David and I… we decided that I would come along on this mission with him and his unit so that we could work on our marriage. He’s gone so much that it’s hard to talk to him or even spend time with him,” I explained, trying to get to the point. “But this way I could be with him while we worked things out.”
“You guys aren’t getting a divorce, right?” Delilah replied.
Tears broke from my eyes at the thought. What if things ended that way?
“No, but we agreed on… an arrangement. The guys in his unit seemed interested in me, and I kind of was interested in them too. Well, I was interested a lot, but I wasn’t going to cheat or anything. I wouldn’t ever do that!” I told her, my words stringing together. “But David told me it would be fun to open up the bedroom to the other guys. So, we did that.”
“You opened up your marriage?” Delilah asked, making sure she had the story right.
“We did. We were having a good time. Things were great, but… I told David that I might be getting feelings for the other guys. He was fine with that, but I’m so scared that what we’re doing is going to shatter our marriage,” I admitted, bile rising in the back of my throat as nausea hit me.
“If David is okay with everything, you shouldn’t worry so much, right?” Delilah replied.
“I guess, but I can’t shake this nervousness that I feel. I can’t help but feel greedy… like my own husband isn’t good enough for me. It makes me feel terrible, even if that’s far from the case,” I sighed as I shook my head.
“If it makes you feel this bad, maybe you need to take some time to think about it more before you get involved with them again,” Delilah suggested. “I know it’s complicated feeling things for multiple people, but you don’t have to act on what you feel all the time. If you want to just be with David after this mission, you can do that. You can move in whatever direction you feel comfortable with.”
I released a slow exhale, trying to relax a little, but the uncertainty of everything still put me on edge. What was the right decision? My instincts told me to run far away, but that stemmed from my fear. Was that really the right move?
“I’m just confused,” I told her. “I didn’t expect things to turn out this way. These guys are really great, and they’re all so close to David. The last thing I want to do is ruin that or ruin our marriage.”
“It’s a balance. Trust me, it was a learning curve figuring out how to be with multiple guys at once,” Delilah replied. “But if you can communicate and find that balance, you could be happier than ever before. Just don’t completely shut the door on anything, okay? Get through the mission, get home, and then decide.”
She was right. I wouldn’t fully understand how I felt until we were back home in our own house surrounded by our typical surroundings. Everything was different out here, so the things that worked here weren’t guaranteed to work back at home.
All I could do was wait and see if things fell apart or made sense in a way that I never expected. We were almost at the point of figuring that out, and every single second that passed by felt like torture.
Chapter 21
Amir
The air around me grew silent and heavy as I strode through the woods separating the cottage from the city. The rest of the unit walked ahead of me with their guns and their gear on, not a word being spoken. Today was the day we were going to take down Dimitrik.
After some back-and-forth correspondence with the rebel leaders thanks to Brianna’s help and some recon on our own, we finally located a bunker on the outer edge of the city where Dimitrik had been hiding since our last attack. He had been lying low for a while now, but he’d popped out a few times to get supplies in the city where the rebels had spotted him.